Wrong love

Chapter 10

- Why, he asked. I couldn't tell him the real reason behind it. If I did, he would probably find some way to talk me out of it. I only had one option here and it was hurting Derek.

- We don't work. We need to stop before more feelings get formed, I said. I was going to tell him that I didn't like him but that would be such a lie.

- Why. Why are you saying this all of sudden, he asked and looked at me with sad eyes. What other choice did I have?

- Derek, I said.

- Is it because of your ex, he asked. It had nothing to do with my ex at this point.

- Derek, I said. I didn't know what to say. All I wanted to do was to tell him the truth.

- Look me in the eyes. Tell me that you don't want to be with me, he said with a shaking voice. I looked directly in his eyes and I could feel my heart race. I can do this. This was all for my dad's happiness. I tried to open my mouth but no words seemed to fall out.

- There has to be a reason why you want to leave me, he said.

- Derek just. Let's move on, I said. I was about to get up from the swing and walk away until I felt his hand on my wrist.

- I know that you don't mean this. He said and looked down. I wanted to cry. I wanted to hug him and just be happy. Ever since he came into my life it's been nothing but chaos.

- Goodbye Derek, I said and got free from his grip and began to walk away.

- Stop, he said with a serious voice. I did as he said but I didn't turn around to face him.

- If you walk away from me now. That's it. Isn't it, he asked. Derek continued to make it harder and harder for me. I walked away and didn't say anything after that.

Why did I have to make that choice? Why couldn't I just ignore my father's request and be happy with Derek? Did I always have to put others' happiness before myself?

I continued to stare out at the taxi window, watching the rain slowly hit the car window. After talking to Derek, the rain began to pour down causing me to call a taxi to take me home. Did Derek call a taxi as well? Did he go somewhere safe and dry? Questions continued to float in my head. I sighed and shook my head pushing the thoughts of Derek out of my head.

As soon as I stepped in the house, I went straight to my room. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. I pulled out my headphones and quickly slipped them on. I tried to avoid love songs or anything that could possibly remind me of Derek. However no matter what song that came on, Derek was still on my mind. I took off my headphones and looked around the room. Why was it suddenly so hard to take Derek out of my mind? We weren't even together for a long time. I continued to be in my own mind until someone knocked on my door.

- Come in, I said. The door opened and I looked up and saw my dad standing there.

- Ho, he started but was cut off by me.

- Look if you came here to ask if I ended things with Derek. I did, I said.

- Sweety, dad said. I didn't answer. Instead I looked out of the window.

- Look. I've been doing a lot of thinking since we spoke, he said.

- Just forget it. I already heard what you had to say, I said.

- Ignore what I said before, dad said and looked at me. I looked up at him and looked confused.

- What, I asked.

- What I said earlier was out of anger. I didn't mean anything I said, he said and looked down.

- So what are you saying, I asked.