starting our lives New

chapter 25

      Edward pov

I snapped my eyes open and locked eyes with her and started jamming my finger into the table as I leaned forward.

"Your fucking doing it again, punch! I have and had a fucking plan put in action to protect OUR KIDS BELLA! They will be safe at that cave inside the storms. If I would have let them go to base before us they would have been put right smack in danger, I won't do that baby so I made them go back until we tell them and we will be at base first and then I have another plan to track them down by the signal. So give me some God damn credit here." I got up and walked outside to cool off.

I really hate getting into arguments with my wife.

I looked up at the night sky and just closed my eyes.

"I'm sorry! I don't know how to explain this to you!" I turned around and looked at her.

"Then figure it out baby because it isn't just the kids either you done it before them too. We're team Bella, I'm not going anywhere. What's it going to take for you to believe that and me damn it! I know you have your doubts especially when it concerns Anthony and whoever that other bastard is and I know what just happened to and yes I noticed it got a little worse after that too. But I promise you I'm not going anywhere and we're a team. I love you. I'm not giving up on what we have! I can't and will not do that to you or myself or our kids." I fell to my knees.

I just didn't know what to do to help her with this. I keep showing her and sending through our connection and what she feels and says hits right in the gut each and every fucking time.

Then I felt my wife's hand on the side of my face and I moved my eyes up to her's.

"Give me time to sort it out in my head so I can explain it to you so you can understand because I can't understand it so I can't tell you what I don't understand myself. Do you get what I'm saying." I had to hurry and catch because of how really weak she still was and I scooped her up and slid my hand down her neck and pulled her face close to mine only inches apart.

"I can do that for you baby! But I understand what you're saying. I still love you though and just because I get pissed with you does not mean I don't love you or I am going to walk away for go it's the other way around Bella. I'm so afraid of you walking away from me. I can't lose you. Your my life, my better half, my everything, you hold my heart and soul and always. I so so much baby!" I pulled her lips against mine and I even deepened it too so her how much I needed her and how much I love her and how she was everything to me and I even sent it to our connection to her.

My wife went to a puddle of goo in my arms.

I still had her face close to my. "My wife went to a puddle of goo on me." She even fell limp against my chest out of my arm falling forward.

I chuckled. She fell back to sleep again into a deep sleep.

I shake my head and slowly hold her against me kinda of sideways so I could stand up and once I stood up I wrapped her legs around my waist and her one under her butt and the other gently held her upper half against me as I went back down below and made Rosey move and I slid into Bella spot and laid my legs on the bench and spread my legs apart and flipped my wife sideways and slid her down so she was comfortable and Rosey handed me a thin blanket for her and another coffee refill for me.

"Let's make lists of what we need to get done when we get there and what we also must have up and run before we even set sail. Then we can work on them as we go. Then your job is, doc, is to set both hospitals sections before my dad steps foot on our new home." I said.

"Oh first thing will be fine the beds and the put them together in the middle of the bedroom,that way it's all set up." Well I guess the first thing is we build our living we also set up all the laptops and then we work on the security room." I told Rosey.