Your all I ever wanted. A stevepop story 🫶🫶

Slight a/n

Ik ik
A whole chapter for an a/n??

Long story short. Either chapters will rap and fire. Or be so slow it's insane.

Long story long.
I know I act like my mental heath isn't a big deal- but I truly haven't been in a great place with myself lately.
I met someone who would change who I was as a person a few months ago. Mid October. He changed my life and I went from never having a crush in my entire life to falling for him quickly and violently.
I wasn't in the best state of mind at the moment and felt I didn't fit in to the thing I was doing. I was managing a sport- I hated it. Till he came along and changed me over the next few months until the end of January. I had been wanting to get his number for weeks prior but talked myself out of it and made a huge decision not to on Jan 25th. The last time we would ever see each other.

And when I lost him. I lost my chance. It got worse than it did before.
I hated myself for letting me talk myself out of it and is still not over the thought of it all.

It had been a few weeks and my friend decided to cheer me up and take me to a school sports (different one) game. Little did she know he would be in the game.
His number was 25. The same day I had made that decision for the last time.

My favorite number has been 25 for years.
And it didn't help that I made that decision on the 25th. And now it was his game number.

After the game ended I walked home and saw something out of the corner of my eye. It was a guitar pic.
We had talked about how he had found about 10 guitar pics on the ground over the years and kept them for good luck during the season between game times.

And this seems fake. And I know it does.
It seems so fake in fact I don't believe it myself.

I grabbed the pic and immediately thought of him.
Thought I'd keep it for good luck.

It had the number 25 carved into it.

It didn't feel real. I felt like it was a sick joke. But how? I still don't know and it was weeks ago.

I keep it in the back of my phone case.

Things are better. I'm doing my best to let go but he changed me so much.
He made me appreciate the little things.

Anyways there's that.