I cant sleep without you

Lightness

          I dissolved into our kiss. Our lips touched so gently and slowly, it was a source of incredible sweet pleasure. In that moment, there was only our kiss. Those plump lips I had longed for finally came true. I prayed for this moment to last as long as possible, please... But unfortunately, this timid and insanely sweet kiss was interrupted. She pulled away, and I still couldn't open my eyes, wanting to keep these sensations within me. I wanted so much...

— So, what's it like? — she said with an insanely calm voice, making me finally open my eyes.

— What... What was that?

— Just nothing special, — she replied with a brief smile and sat back at her laptop.

       I struggled to understand what was happening. With the pain from the scrapes on my leg, I stood up and looked at her, but she just continued writing her book as if nothing had happened.

— Kara, damn it! Do you think it's as simple as shaking hands?! — Resentment engulfed me. — What was that?!

— I have a kissing scene here, I wanted to know how it feels to describe it in my book, — she said, without looking up from her work.

      I stood there with my mouth open.

— So, it was for the sake of the book? — I tried to contain my reaction and speak more calmly.

— Exactly.

— If this were someone else, would you have kissed them too?

       Damn, my heart was pounding in my chest. In just a few minutes, I had been on cloud nine, and if she answered "yes" now, I would just collapse to the ground. She doesn't rush to answer, but she's no longer typing. She is thoughtfully silent, looking me straight in the eyes. There is a certain tension in the air, and I can't understand what she's thinking. My heart is beating faster, waiting for her answer. And suddenly she says words that shock me:

— If it were someone else, I wouldn't be here.

        Her words penetrate deep within me, and I begin to realize that this kiss, these moments, were special only because it was her. A sense of relief washes over me, and I can't say for sure whether I like it or not.

       Suddenly, I turn towards the bed to lie down and leave her in peace. Something strikes me, and I decide not to disturb this moment. But before I can lay down, I suddenly ask a question that comes to mind: "What if there was a bed scene?!" At that moment, she stops typing again and remains silent for so long that I begin to doubt if I'll get an answer. But suddenly I hear her light, sincere laughter, filling the room. We start laughing together, our laughter becoming louder and more unstoppable.

        It feels like time stands still, and we immerse ourselves in this instant connection, letting laughter release all tension and doubts. We are sitting in different places, but our eyes meet, and they hold a smile that speaks of the significance of this moment. At this moment, we can only feel what is happening, and understanding will come later.

        Waking up from a deep sleep, I feel an unusual sweetness of slumber. Stretching with pleasure, I roll onto my side, my gaze fixed on Kara's bed. She's still asleep, lying on her back. One hand covers her closed eyes, making her lips even more inviting.

       Yesterday's events flood back into my memory, and I realize I won't be able to forget them. And, in fact, I don't want to forget. I wish for every moment of my life to be filled with such pleasant and beautiful moments... Together with her... Yes, it sounds too loud, too strong, but I don't know how else to describe what I feel inside.