Accidental Encounter

26. Headed Home

I walked in a threw my bag on the couch. "OK you can say what you gotta say.  Let's hear it." I said turning to face Bruno.  He was much closer than I expected and when I turned he grabbed my face and kissed me. I wanted so bad to push him away but I missed his touch and wanted him so badly.  Eventually my stubbornness won and I pulled away.  "Bruno I'm not gonna be played again. I'm not a game and my heart isn't a toy." I said.  "Belive me baby.  I didn't cheat on you.  Girls are ruthless and girls love money and fame. She wrote that knowing you'd find it.  She never gave me that note.  She must have stuck it in there when I hugged her at the end of our evening. " he explained.  "Then why take her to dinner tonight? Why?" I questioned.  "Because I didn't want to cancel my reservation, my dad was busy, so I figured I'd take her and discuss the plan for the video. The shoot starts tomorrow.  This is gonna be a big video deal. I want it to be perfect." He said taking my hands in his.  He continued, "I don't want to be seen with you because fans are ruthless, social media is ruthless, and you don't deserve that. You deserve the best."  "I've heard this before Bruno.  But I'm a big girl, I candle life and all the bullshit it throws at me.  I appreciate you but really, it's kind of a shitty feeling always being hidden.  So tell me then, why have you been so shady lately? You haven't talked to me. You spend all day in your studio not working on anything.  Is it guilt? Lies? Tell me what it is." I begged.  "Sometimes I just need to get away from everything. Sometimes I need to be alone" I cut him off, "Bullshit. You spend lots of time alone on your tour bus, in your hotel room, but never when your home.  You came home and it was like kissing a wall. Then you walk away and mingled oh so happily with everyone else."   "Look, I ask you all the time to go with me here and go with me there and you never do.  Because you want to work. You want to be independent. I don't want that shit.  I want you by my side. Okay so work here and there or find a job you can do online. Travel with me, be by my side all the time." He said. He reached into the liquor cabinet and pour us both a spiced rum and coke.  "Bruno I've never had to depend on a man, not even my shitty dad.  I've had to do everything for myself, fix my own car, yard work, money, fight my own battles, all that kind of stuff.   It's who I am.  I love my job and what I do. I love helping others get back to doing the things they love." I explained.  He just stood there looking at me. "Okay. You do what you love. I'll do what I love and at some point we'll make time to love each other I guess." He said with attitude. "Oh by the way, I saw how you was looking at that dude you brought over last week.  Your eyes don't lie." He said finishing his drink.  I had nothing to say to that. He was right. My eyes always give me away.  I did crush on Kyle just a bit but I wouldn't do Bruno like that because I know how shitty it feels.  I was feeling lonely and Kyle was giving me attention and conversation.

I crawled into bed next to Bruno.  He had his back to me so I softly ran my fingernails up and down his back.  They were just the right length to soothe him but not scratch him.  "I love when you do that to my back baby." He whispered.  "Goodnight Bruno." I whispered back as I kissed his neck disappointed we were going to get freak nasty.

The next day at work I went out for lunch with Jessica and Melissa.  Bruno hates Chipotle so I never passed up the opportunity to eat it when others invite.  "So how's life? You good?" Jessica asked. "Yeah I'm okay. Things will get better." I replied. "I love Chipotle but man I always feel so fat after I eat it." Melissa complained. Jessica and I looked at each other and rolled our eyes.   Melissa was cool but she could get quite annoying with all her diets and fear of getting fat.  "Bueno mujeres we better get back. Both of you have busy afternoons." Jessica said gathering our trash.  It was weird being civil with her but I wasn't going to live miserable day by day at work. 

That evening I made a big dinner for Bruno but her didn't show up until sometime after 2am.  Of course he was drunk out of his mind and I heard him stumbling around trying to get undressed. I didn't feel like dealing with his drunk bullshit so I pretended to be soundly sleeping.  He crawled into bed and curled up next to me.  He reeked of alcohol, enough that I was feeling drunk just smelling him.  "Damn Baby how much did you drink?" I asked annoyed.  "Hey I drinked funuff forallof us. Let's dance." He slurred. "No its late and I'm half asleep.  Go to bed fool." I argued.  "Come on girl let me put my hands on that fine ass and grind against you Rita." He mumbled.