You Are Dead But Alive

Kabanata 4

Let’s Have Distance

Starting from those days, iniiwasan ko na sila and it seems my personality change a lot. Parang bumabalik ’yong pagiging introvert ko. Hindi na ako masyadong namamansin e. Because of what happened from the past days, I think, it is necessary to  be in silent again. It was morning, the sun shine so bright. I went to the garden and mesmerizing the beautiful view. The silence suddenly broke when someone is approaching me.

“Miah, I’m sorry. It was Mark who gave those snacks and not me. I don’t know why is he doing that.”  Dave said and looks pitiful. I understand Dave naman kasi best friend siya ni Mark. Okay lang din naman sa akin na ganyanin.

“In short, I am easy to play with kasi bata ako. ” I said and walked away from him. Sana maiintindihan niyo rin na nasasaktan din kami. May puso rin kami .

I went back to our room and Layla was not around. In my boredoms, I enter into library. I read some love stories and action. Ito kasi ang madalas kong ginagawa sa bahay. I also love writing katulad ng nasa diary ko, doon nakasulat ang lahat ng gusto kong sabihin na hindi ko masabi sa iba dahil nga mahiyain ako. Doon din nakasulat ang mga nangyayari sa buhay ko kasama na doon ang pangbu-bully ni Mark noong first day of school.

I silently reading the book when I saw Mark coming towards me. He first walk around the library and stopped right infront of me. He had my diary in his hand. I just ignored him and continue reading, focus on what I am doing. After a while, I stood up and not even taking a glimpse on him. I tend that I sees nothing. I walked and doing things such normal. I found Layla with her other friends kaya   hindi na ako nakikisabay sa kaniya dahil may mga kaibigan din naman siya. I just don’t want to act like friendly kasi never nangyayari sa akin iyon. Kung may makikipagkaibigan din sa akin, aalis din naman. Kaya it is better to make sure of everything before everything will be too late.

**Ringing**

Bumalik na ako sa classroom. Umupo ako sa likuran banda. Tahimik ang buong classroom and I notice that there is something went wrong.

“Miah, are you okay?” Layla worries. I just nodded and looked around me. They all feel what I feel, I guess.

Everytime na papasok ako sa room, as normally, maingay naman talaga sila tapos may mga nag-uusap, nakikipagkuwentuhan at marami pa. But when I entered, bigla sila napatahimik. I don’t know either.

After classes, agad akong lumabas ng room without even saying goodbye. I want to sleep na agad.

As usual, naglalakad na naman ako. I didn’t notice that someone, wearing black jacket and jog with his hat and mask is on my front. He looks familiar to me yet, I just continue walking and passed over him. I don’t know him. He suddenly hold my right hand but I escaped. I ran away as fast as I could. I noticed that he keep following me. My hands aching and I just remembered that he wears scented clothes and its smell leaves unforgettably. It remains in my nose. He had a golden watch. I pinned this into my mind that, if something will happen to me, I can describe him.

I was about to change my direction when Layla is calling.

  “Miah! What happen to you?” She ask me. Thanks God, dahil nandiyan siya.

  “Someone is following me. Baka kidnapper. But I wonder, bata pa naman ’yon kung maging kidnapers siya. Baka magnanakaw but, he wore a golden watch, so ano siya?” Layla smirked and took a piece of paper. Padala raw ng aming guro.Umuwi ako ng bahay na may baong takot. Suddenly, sobrang kinabahan ako ng nawawala na naman ang dala kong aklat. Binili iyon ni Papa. Tangan ko pa ’yon kanina pero...kinuha siguro no’ng lalaking humabol sa’kin. Pero okay nalang, kasi hindi naman ako nasaktan. Bet niya rin siguro ’yong libro. Sa kaniya nalang.