OUR INNOCENCE

Chapter-8 The Confession

REYA'S POV

Tanishka asked me to confess my feelings to him. But what if he didn't reciprocate it. What if he denied out of revenge, the way I did last year. I'm soo fucking nervous about it.

I'm not scared of rejection but I don't want to witness the fact that he hates me.

But now I'm off my limits. I'm just fed up with this overthinking. I just want to rant it all to him.
I don't care about the consequences. It will be his choice either to accept or to reject.

I'll never approach him if he asks me to go away.
But right now I need to make the confession. I need to loose the burden in my heart and in my mind.

I've made up my mind. I asked Tanishka to ask him if he could wait for me in the classroom after the school calls off.

As the school bell rang, my heart started beating at a faster pace. It felt like I'm going on a mission. The mission of confession. I gathered every ounce of energy and courage before I left my classroom.

Sometimes it feels all good. But the other time it feels if I should not do it. I'm tired of pretending that I'm not into him. I can't continue like this.

I shouldn't be afraid of saying I love you but I'm.

He was an unexpected surprise, the defining moment. The collision of stars that slammed into me hard and sent my near little world into the ocean. The ocean of his thoughts.

I never expected it to be him. But it's him. It's all him. His eyes were so warm and intense on me that I was sure he could read all my thoughts, everything I felt and thought about him, written on my pupil.

As I started walking through the corridor my anxiety peaked. My heart isn't stopping. I curled my fingers into a fist when I reached his classroom.

I saw Tanu coming out of the class. She held my hands "Go ahead, he's waiting for you. And say whatever you feel like. He's a good guy."she embraced me. I nodded.

"Don't worry I'm here only. I'll shout if someone comes." she chuckled to ease my mind.

I entered his classroom. He was standing near the last bench. I placed my bag on the first desk. I lifted my feet, taking slow steps towards him. Our eyes were fixed on each other.

"Hey!"he said.

"Hii.."I exclaimed.

"You wanted to talk? Mmm..Tanishka told me you asked me to stay back."he said.

"Yeah..I told her..I just wanted to...mmm..it's like..."I faltered.

"Are you okay? Be easy hmm?" I nodded.

"Vayush..actually..." I sighed.

"Say it Reya..it's been almost a year."he whispered.

"Hmm..wait. What? You know what I'm going to say..?" I questioned with confusion.

He nodded." Go ahead...I'm all ears."

"Look, I know I may sound stupid but all these months all I've done is to think about you. You never left my mind since the say we met on the stairs.
I know it was me who asked you to stay away, to let it be but since that day I can't get my eyes off you. I started including you in my imaginary world.
I search for you in the assembly everyday. My heart sobs when I don't find you. Whenever your class goes down to the playground, my eyes search for you. I love staring you when you kick the ball. I feel happy when you score goals.
I don't know what it is..whatever it is..I'm liking it.
I like you Vayush. I really do." I worded.

His face was neutral. Neither it showed my excitement not any regret.

"See I'm not expecting a positive reply. You can open to me. It's all upto you. Maybe you're angry with me or maybe you hate m.." before I could complete he cut me.