Why would I do that? (an ohmnanon fanfic)

The First Kiss (non's pov)

IMPORTANT INFORMATION

I am planning on doing a Q&A for the author and characters of the story in the coming week. as I said, I wouldn't be able to update the story; the least I could do is keep you guys entertained and happy. please add the questions to the respective character's name.

author

Ohm Pawat

Nanon Korapat

Nonnie

Film

Thai

Prim

others (the gang)

Also , what do you guys think of the following couples? your options are: a cupid's bow (couple them), a friendship bracelet (better off as friends), i knew you were trouble (go away and never ever think of dating each other)

FilmPrim

ThaiNonnie

LucasDan

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Knowing that Ohm likes both guys and girls excites me somehow. I haven't felt this way in so long. I should've known that the way he flirts with me is not another bromance, but what if it is? What if he likes guys but not me? When he came out to me two days ago, I had this vibe that there was a chance that the person he liked was me. The best I could do was confront him about Nonnie and Thai shipping us together. But when I saw him turning pale, it was understandable that he just did not like the idea of being with me. So I laughed it off; even though it hurt, I didn't want him to be uncomfortable, especially just after coming out to me. I didn't want to be one of the guys who say things like, "I accept that you are gay and all, but just don't make a move on me."; "No, John, I am gay, not stupid." 

Even though I do not want to overthink it,. Ohm has changed since that conversation. I don't remember saying anything uncomfortable. The thing is, since then, Ohm has stopped flirting with me. He has stopped flirting with me at all. I guess he's just making it clear that he is not into me. (a/n: yeah, sure.)

I don't know why I hate this, but seeing Ohm all flirty with Dan right now sitting in front of me is boiling my blood. If you are not just into me, just say it on my face. You don't need to ignore me and go flirt with the first guy you see available. 

The way Dan has a hand on his thigh right now, if I could, I would burn that hand right in the middle of a bar. Lucas called the two of us out as a celebration of our shoot ending. What's so good about the ending of the shooting? It's like they are celebrating my leaving Ohm's condo. And to be honest, he looks happy. I guess nobody will disrupt his schedule or keep things here and there once I am out of there. 

And I didn't know Dan and Ohm were this close; otherwise, I wouldn't have come here and started feeling so insecure. He has been sitting next to Dan ever since we came here. That tight hug. The way he had a hand around his waist when he was about to trip. And no, I did not make him trip on my leg. It was a beer can. And yes, I might have pushed that can towards his leg, but that's not the point. This guy has been standing next to Ohm ever since we came in, and Ohm, even once, did not spare a glance at me. 

The way he pulled ohm on the dance floor, saying it's their song. First of all, Ohm hates dancing, but he got on the floor with him. Second of all, we should be the duo that has an 'us song' not them. I and Ohm have nothing in common, and then there's this guy who has a 'this is our song' with Ohm. And despite the fact that there were sweaty people on the floor and the floor was dirty, Ohm still went with him. I just hate being around here.

I hate being here; I just want to grab Ohm and take him away from here and tell him who he belongs to. Wait a minute, grab him. Tell him who he belongs to? What is wrong with you, Nanon? He is here indulging with other guys and making it crystal clear for you that he hates the fact of you two being together. Making it clear to you that, despite the fact that he is into men, he would never be into you. And you are here, thinking about taking him out of here and telling him he belongs to you and only you. With what right? What authority do i have towards this man? And why am I jealous? 

Am I jealous? fuck, I am jealous. this is wrong. I should not feel that way about him, especially if he is making it clear that he doesn't want me. I almost felt tears brim my eyes. I swear to God, I just want to run away from here and hide in a pity hole. I just can't stand this anymore. 

All there was left to do was run away, so that was what I decided to do. I got up and ran away from the bar. I came outside and took the first cab I could find. I wanted to go back to the place I was living in, but I remembered Nonnie saying she was calling some friends over. I thought of going back to my parent's house, but I don't want to trouble Mom. so I went to the only place left, Ohm's condo. 

I reached there in the next 20 minutes. I got in the house, changed my shoes and got into the room. And as soon as I got into the room and locked it, a sob escaped my lips. This was wrong. I betrayed ohm; I betrayed my friend for my feelings. I was about to claim something that was not supposed to be mine in the first place. and worse than that, I let my feelings overwhelm me so much that I had to run away like a coward. 

At this time, I was completely broken. I was sitting on my bed, my head in my hands, tears flowing down my cheeks. That was when i realized the main door was opening. I heard footsteps, and then a bang on my door. It was obviously ohm, and as soon as I heard his voice, my heart ached more.

"Non, are you okay? Why did you run away from the bar like that?"

"Ohm, I literally am not in a situation to have a talk with you." and just as I thought I would get out of talking with him, a sob slipped from my lips, betraying me and presenting the truth in front of Ohm. 

"Non, are you crying? You have two options: either you open the door or I break it."

I knew I had to come clean to him; he would never stop insisting now that he had heard me crying, so all I could do was get up and open the door for Ohm to come in and take me in his arms to soothe me. I felt like a pity doll, crying just to gain his attention through sympathy."

"Non, can you please tell me what happened that made you cry, and who do I need to kill?"

"I betrayed you, ohm. I betrayed our friendship and our bond; I let my feelings get the best of me." I could see the confusion right in front of my eyes, and I couldn't help but let my mind wander off to his cuteness. And then there is me, who was trying to get my way with a really good friend of mine.

"What do you mean, Non? How could you ever betray me? You are the one guy who cannot do any wrong in my eyes." hearing these words was like a key to my restraints. I couldn't control it anymore. I just pulled him in for a kiss. What was more shocking was that there was no repulsion. I slipped away from him to make sure he had no issue with what I was doing. and that's when it struck me.

*flashback*

"Non, kissing is a very important emotion for me. I can't just go around and kiss my colleagues like that."

*end of flashback*

The realization dawned on me. The only thing left in me was guilt and regret. What have I done? I kissed the one person who told me that a kiss was not something he'd do until he actually loved that person.

A/N: Next is Ohm's POV. Please wait for it.