Why would I do that? (an ohmnanon fanfic)

just friend?

I could feel Nanon hating the atmosphere around him. And I hate being the reason he is in one. How can I enjoy myself when he is suffering? But then again, I am just his friend, like everyone here.I became friends with Lucas, Dan,Raven, Mike, and Jason a while ago. I and Nanon weren't close back then. We worked for the same company but were not that close. These people are loud, and they always have something to say. Nanon, on the other hand, is quite the opposite.

 He doesn't like loud atmospheres, and I hate being the reason he is sitting uncomfortably silent in this one. They all consider Nanon their friend too, especially since the shooting began. Nanon and I became closer than usual, and they asked him to hang out with us too. I don't think they understand the fact that Nanon is not enjoying himself; he is rather pushing himself to be here. They are not bad people as much as I know them, but then again, Nanon thinks I am naive and believes whoever I want.

All 6 of us are fans of video games. I don't like it as much as them, but it's good to be good at something and have people to share it with. Though they are too loud and messy, they are good people. I know Nanon is not enjoying himself, and I don't want to force him to be here. But as they are all considered friends, I just can't tell him to go.

I am tending to leave too, because even though the place is clean, it still smells like a mouse died here, and it's making me nauseous. I can't say it in his face, but controlling my breath doesn't count as a possibility anymore.

I just want to sit in the car with Nanon, listen to his songs, go to his place (obviously if he invites me), and watch some of his favorite sitcoms. He is obsessed with them. One time I walked into his room and saw him in tears. I was so nervous; I thought he was hurt, going through something, angry, or something.

*flashback*

"Non, why are you crying? Are you fine?" I asked, as I was scared to see him like that.

*hic* "no"

"Did someone say something to you? Do I need to kill anyone?" 

*hic* "no"

"Are you okay?" I asked him as I took his face in my hand, wiping off his tears.

"I am." *hic*

"What happened? Why are you crying?" I said as he looked at me with his teary-red eyes.

"Jake proposed to Amy during the heist." Nanon said.

I tilted my head in confusion. Who Jake? Who is Amy? What heist?

"Are Amy and Jake your friends?" I asked, as I was really confused about what was going on.

"No, what is wrong with you?" Nanon said it with confusion in his eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"In Brooklyn 99, detective Jake Peralta proposed to detective Amy Santiago." Nanon said as he showed me the screen of his laptop.That's when I realized he was watching the sitcoms he mentioned he was obsessed with.

*end of flashback*

He is so cute. I chuckled, remembering how cute he looked and how much it affected him. But on the outside, he is a strict introvert who doesn't share his feelings.

"Are you okay? Have you gone crazy?" Dan asked, making me look to my side to face them.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

Dan continued, "We just lost the game because you were in some other cloud. And yet you dare to chuckle?"

Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. Did I not chuckle in my mind? Did I chuckle out loud? What if Nanon noticed? What if he thinks I am weird? And even if he didn't, I am sure this bastard Dan saying it out would have made him notice it. What am I going to do? Should I jump off his balcony? It's just 2 storeys though; I don't think I can die jumping from here. Ohm, use words... Ohmmmmm, use any words, just words.

"ah! No, sorry, I was just spaced out. Can we leave? Nanon and I? I just can't concentrate, and we have to rehearse the script." I said I was making any sort of excuse just to get out of there.

Certainly, Nanon agreed with me, because he was finding a reason to leave too. And we both got out of the place the first moment we got.