Why would I do that? (an ohmnanon fanfic)

the first kiss (ohm's pov)

I was woken up when I received a call in the middle of the night. I did not realize that I had picked up the phone until I heard Film shout from the other side of the phone.

"SHE SAID YESS." Film shouted from the other end of the phone. I woke up startled, confused about what she was saying. 

"Who said what?" I asked her in utter confusion.

"I said yes to date her, Ohm." I heard another voice. That's when I realized that this was a conference call, and Prim said yes to Film, for dating her. 

"Woah, I am really happy for you guys." So you're telling me that the tips I am giving to people for dating are working on everyone but on me.

"You like someone too?" I heard it from the other side of the phone. It was Prim; I said it out loud, didn't I? 

"Before I say something, I want to tell you guys something. I am bisexual." I told them without thinking twice. 

"Just one question," Film asked, sounding confused.

"Go ahead."

"Were we not supposed to know that already?"

"You knew about it already?"

"Have you seen the way you look at Nanon? It's clearer than transparent water. He's the one you like, right?"

"What? How do you know that?"

"You were more than obvious."

"Then how come he is not aware?"

"Sorry, ohm, but I think it's time to give up. If he is still oblivious, maybe he's just trying to ignore the fact that you like him to let you know that you two are better off as friends." Prim said. My heart broke into a million pieces, but I can't deny that. What she's saying is absolutely right. I really need to let Nanon go. Well, if anything, the good thing is that his moving out in less than a week would help me get over him soon. 

I really didn't think this day would come. But the way he laughed it off yesterday, the idea of him and I dating. Maybe it's the right thing to do. Let him go and move on from the one person I thought would be permanent in my life. It is my fault, though. How could I let my feelings stand in the middle of our friendship?

............

It's been two days since I stopped flirting with Nanon. I am trying to call him by his whole name so that it doesn't stand in the way. I really miss it, but the fact that it's not going to happen hurts more when I am putting in efforts. I have decided not to do anything about it and just subtly give up. 

Lucas and Dan called us to the bar today. To celebrate the ending of the shooting. What's good about that? The fact that Nanon would leave my place and move out. It will help with the moving-on plan, but it still hurts to know he will leave, and we have no sense or reason to connect until the next drama. I know there will be project meetings and fan meetings, but they are professional, and we would have to meet only for professional purposes. 

I was about to call Nanon when he came out himself. He was looking like an angel in devilish disguise. How can he look so cute and hot at the same time? Seriously, he'd be the death of me. How am I supposed to control myself when he's looking so fucking hot? 

........

I tried my best not to look at Non. All night, I tried to be with Dan. We are the least close, so I thought we would have more to talk about, and I can just ignore the fact that I want to ravish him right in front of all these people so people know he is mine. No, Ohm, you are supposed to move on, not fuck him. I was doing great, but Non pulled that serious, sexy face of his. I just want to leave; my pants are getting stiff, and I hate it. I was trying to keep my mind here and there when Dan shouted, "Ohm, this is our song." Our song? We have an 'our song'? Since when? Well, whatever gets me out of this situation. I regretted the decision as soon as I stood up. The floor was dirty, and the people were sweaty. If there was a possibility, I'd rather have chosen, being killed over it, but the situation is worse, so I have nowhere else to go. 

As we were dancing, I saw Nanon running from the place. Is he fine? Does he want to puke? Why is he running? When I ran behind him, I caught him crying, taking a cab, and running, I took my car and went after him. I didn't know where he was going, but as I took turns with them, I realised he was going to my condo. 

When I reached my condo, I went upstairs and opened the door. I realised he was in his room when I heard a sob. 

"Non, are you crying? I am going to give you two options: you either open the door or I break it." 

I did not hear much after that, except for some shuffling, steps, and then the door unlocking. As soon as the door was unlocked, Nanon fell into my arms, helpless and breaking down. Everything after that is a blur to me. Nanon was saying something about betraying me and our friendship. How can he betray me when I am having thoughts of having him and making him mine? 

"Nanon, how can you break my trust? When you are the guy who can do no wrong in my books,"

Those were the last words I said to him before he pulled me in and kissed me. It tasted like desperation. He pulled away, and I saw in his eyes that he was regretting this decision. I wanted to be the sweet, caring Ohm. But I couldn't. I just couldn't help myself and pulled him in a more aggressive kiss. A kiss that was more desperate than before. The tongues tangling and the teeth clashing. All that was left for me to engulf him. If I could I would've done that. 

And that is when I realized. I did something wrong. I forced him into this kiss; it was not his choice. He was regretting his decision to kiss me. how can I do that? but it looked like he wanted it too.

"No, do you want to kiss me?" 

"yes ohm."

bye bye.

see you guys next week. as stated before, I won't be updating until next week. jub jub, miss you guys.