Why would I do that? (an ohmnanon fanfic)

we are not meant to be

Non's pov:

I have been sitting in my room for a while. I have not once heard Ohm come outside of his room or go out. I know he is most probably crying. But why won't he let me console him? I lost my babies too. But instead of grieving with me, he is locked up in his room, crying to himself.

I got out of my room to go meet him. I know he is upset and he deserves his space, but I cannot leave him like this. As soon as I was about to knock on his door, I heard him talking. But who was he talking to?

"Why do all the people I love have to leave me? I decided not to get too attached to anyone after you. But I still did. And it ended up hurting too bad again. I end up losing everyone I love. First you, then my grandma and now Jun. I am just done."

Listening to all that just broke my heart. I just went away from his room and decided to leave him alone in this time of grief. I shouldn't overburden his personal life and space.

*On the other side of the door*

Ohm: "I just hope I don't end up losing the love of my life."

Non's pov:

I am done. I have hurt the love of my life so badly that he is grieving. He doesn't even want to love me anymore. I know he won't say anything because he doesn't want to see me sad but this relationship is going to be a burden on him. I should leave him before he actually thinks of me as a burden. I can't let him suffer through something like that. This is not fair to him. I will just leave him alone. I don't deserve to be with a man whose babies I just killed with a wrong decision I made. I know he is done with our relationship and doesn't want me anymore.

I decide to pack my bags and leave him a letter.

Hi ohm,

I know you are not in the happiest moods right now. I am just writing this letter to tell you I am leaving. I am not sure where I will be going. I would have told you otherwise. 

I, for now, just want to tell you that I think we should take a break from this relationship. Right now, it's best for the both of us that we do not focus on anything but our future, even if it means separately. I know with me here; you can't grieve properly. I want you to be happy in your life, achieve all your targets and live a happy life.

And I just want you to know, that being with you was one of the best things that have ever happened to me.

Nanon.

I just took my car keys, my clothes, my bags and essentials and left. I don't remember much after that. I just know that I spent the whole ride back crying. I didn't want to be alone tonight so I just decided to go back to my parents' house. Nonnie never knew about our relationship so I can just lie to her about getting my heart broken and being rejected. I was such a mess. When I reached back to their house, the lights were off, which means it's family dinner night or everyone is asleep. And because today is not Thursday or Saturday, I knew it was the latter one. I had my spare key on me, so getting inside the house was not that big of a deal.

When I went inside the house, I saw nonnie in the kitchen cooking some instant noodles for herself.

"Hia, why are you here so late?"

"You remember it's my house too, right?"

"I know. I know"

"I just thought you and P'Ohm would be enjoying your relationship together."

"You knew about us?"

"Thai told me."

"That."

"Yeah, whatever. I am going to sleep; don't wake me up. I have taken a week off. And don't bring up my and ohm's relationship up in front of anyone."

"Okay Hia."

Escaping her was easy. As the lights were off, she couldn't have seen my stained cheeks. And the fact that she didn't ask many questions made me feel a little lighter. I can explain the whole situation to her when I feel a little better.

NEXT MORNING

I woke up with this ultimate headache. I had switched off my phone last night. I knew Ohm would've called me as soon as he saw the letter. So, I was trying to escape him by making him feel that I did not get any of the calls he made. I guess I can just act like his friend on the next promotion. That's the least I can do after scarring the love of my life forever.

When I came down, I saw nonnie was on a call.

"Yeah, he just came down. Phi has been trying to call you; he wants to talk to you." Nonnie said, looking at me. Now I can't avoid him, as Nonnie already told him that I am here.

I just took the phone from Nonnie.

"Non." The voice broke me into a million pieces—pieces that can never be glued together.

"How did you know I was here?"

"Your childhood room is your comfort place. Where else would you go?"

"Yeah. You know me."

"What do you mean, future separately? You know you are my future, right?"

"Ohm, a lot went on in a day. Your life has switched upside down. I want you to take your time and think about what you want. I want you to focus on yourself before making any more decisions; we can be friends till then."

"What do you mean we can be friends? We are not friends Non, we are partners, lovers, boyfriends. We are together. I'll die if I go back to being 'just friends' with you. I have been through a lot, and so have you. There is no future if there is no you. I am your partner, non. This is not a decision you can make by yourself and just inform me about it."

"I want you to think it out, Ohm."

"There is nothing to think about. I am not in a state to stand up for myself. I woke up on my floor today, just to knock on your door to find it empty, saying you have left. I have been calling you since then just for you to ignore me. I call Nonnie, and she tells me you reached their crying. I talk to you, and you tell me to rethink my decision to love you. What is wrong, Non?"

Oh my god, I never thought I'd be the one doing this to him. But as much as it hurts to get those words out of my mouth,. I have to say them. For his sake, for his good. Even if it means that he will hate me for the rest of my life.

"ohm,

.

.

.

You are not good enough."

A/N: short because i almost cried my eyes out while writing this. I have been planning this plot for a while, and I finally got to put it the way I wanted. but when I am trying to put it exactly the way I want to. the words are not just looking good enough. apologies. <3 

Bear with me for a few more chapters because the story is not too far away from the end. then I will complete the book I have been putting on hold. I know you guys are mad, but it will be short and sweet, not too long chapters. just fun and all. 

Also, wtf, my previous parents (boun prem) joined the company of my current parents (first khao), I have been happy. but i am so much happier now. only if Fort Peat end up joining GMMTV, all my biases will be in the same company. I know I love other artists, but biases our biases, you have a reason to be biased towards them.