Why would I do that? (an ohmnanon fanfic)

Away

Non's POV: 

since the time I said those words, I have not received anything from Ohm. A text, a call, nothing. The fact that he just said okay and cut the call is cutting me deep.  The fact that he had no reaction, had nothing to say to me. I am not sure how to feel.

Nonnie realised what happened when I cut the call. The way my expression changed when he said okay. I fell on the floor, crying in my hands. Nonnie came to soothe me and help me get back to my room so my parents don't see me crying in the middle of the house after calling the love of my 'not being enough' for me.

I heard the bell ringing. A little part of my heart wished it was Ohm; I wished Ohm would come here, hit me in the head, hug me, and take me with him. My heart misses him too much. One thing I know is that getting over him would be the toughest thing I'd have to do. 

I got out of my thoughts when I realised tears were brimming again. As i was about to see who was down, I heard Nonnie shout, "YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN, THAI." 

"WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO CALM DOWN? WHERE IS PHI?"

"He is in his room; I will get him for you, but please calm down."

I went out of my room to see what the fuss was about. As soon as I got downstairs, both Nonnie and Thai were standing right next to the stairs. Before I could ask any further questions, Thai came to me and grabbed the collars of my shirt. The next thing I know, I am grabbed by him; Nonnie is pulling him away, and everything looks like a mess. 

"Thai, you need to calm down. Hia had his reasons."

"I don't care what reasons he had. I am not saying he had to be in an unhappy relationship. But he had no reason to say that Hia was not good enough. The only reason I ever trusted this man to be around my elder brother was that he would never hurt my brother intentionally.

I know I was at wrong I shouldn't have told him something that personal to Hia without his permission. But I thought this man, this brother of yours, loved Hia. If the situation ever gets worse, he'd be able to handle Hia if I wasn't there. The fact that I entrusted him with this secret was because I wanted him to stand by my brother and protect him. Not to use it against my own brother. 

And even if he had all the reasons to break up with my brother, he shouldn't have said him the most hurtful words in the world when their own kids, their own babies, had died. The grief of losing their babies wasn't enough; you had to make him a mess by taking the love of his life away from him at the weakest point of his life.

The fact that this dude chose to leave and break my brother to the core of his life when my brother was already dealing with this mess shows that he never deserved my brother's love in the first place."

"STOP IT, THAI." I heard Nonnie shout. My mind was a mess at this point. I didn't want to hear anything, but my consciousness made me, and I could hear everything. The fact that it was all true broke my inner self. He is right; he entrusted me with his brother, and I made a mess out of him. I never deserved Ohm in the first place.

"Why should I, Nonnie? Why should I? This guy broke my brother. My brother has turned into a mess because of him."

I have no recollection of what happened after that. My mind was a mess. My eyes were teary. And my heart was shattered into pieces. The only thing I remember is that Nonnie and Thai were fighting, and my head hit the ground. 

When I woke up, I was in my room, and my tear stains were still visible, so it hasn't been that long. I don't know how I got up here, but everything is wrong. Ohm is having a breakdown, and I am the reason. I know he wouldn't have taken the break up all flowers and petals, but the fact that one line that came out of my mouth made a whole mess out of him. it hurts to be the reason for his sadness.

I am sitting on my bed, crying, and thinking about how I will handle Ohm. What will I do when I meet him at the sets and promotions? I thought I could act like his friend, and we could just let it go as we have not been dating for too long. But now that I know I have broken him, I can't stop myself from thinking about the hate he has in his mind for me. And I am not saying I don't deserve this. But the fact that the love of my life is in immense hatred with me. I just don't think that's the best representation of me. 

I haven't eaten anything since this morning. I know I just went through a breakup and have lost my appetite. But, as I accepted a long time ago, I am a public figure. And I need to be the best version of myself, even when I don't feel my best. I chose this life for myself. Before I could think of another thing, Nonnie came to my room running and was shouting all her way through the stairs. 

My heart went into my imagination; maybe she says, "Hia, P'Ohm is here to talk to you. He wants to make everything clear. And he just wants to take you back with him and start a life with you. He wants to marry you; he is on his knees downstairs."

Before I could travel into any further thoughts, she opened my door, and her breath was hitched. 

"Is everything okay?"

"No," she breathed out.

"What happened?"

"P'Ohm."

"What about ohm?" Is my imagination coming true? Is he downstairs to fight for me and our relationship? Is he here to listen to my sorry speech?

"He got into a car accident; it's all over the news."

"What?"

I ran down to check if I heard it right. I am sure there is some mistake. There is no chance my Ohm got into an accident. The man who never broke rules. How can he be in an accident? They are showing the wrong news for clout.

I broke down when I found out the news was true. Before I could think of anything, my phone rang. Maybe it's from Ohm to tell me it's all fake and he is fine. 

When I picked it up to see who it was, it was from an unknown number. Maybe he is calling me from someone else's phone.

"Is this nanon korapat?" a woman said from the other side of the phone.

"khap."

"You were Ohm Pawat's emergency number."

"Is everything okay?"

"We are sorry to inform you. But Khun Pawat is not with us anymore." I fell to the ground, breaking down.

"Please come in to sign some forms and collect his body. Also, please inform his family."

The phone fell from my hand.  Nonnie came to me asking, "Is everything okay, Hia?"

"Ohm is no more."

THE END.

A/N: The toughest chapters I ever had to write. The way I wanted to die, kill myself, and curse myself while writing the whole chapter. I was just so done. You don't think I'd drop at this, right? You know me. The real end would be after two more chapters, 'the funeral' and 'moving on'. Stay connected.