Nobody's Business

Fresh Air Pt.1

Alicia

Same bed, but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio, but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you all that it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
And it all just sound like uh, uh, uh 

I felt my eyes watering , but I didn't bother to try and stop the tears . 

I blinked , and the tear fell . 

"Your crying ." Char said while driving 

I just turned to look at her silently , 

"Your sniffling ." Char replied , It's like she read my mind . I was wondering how she knew.

She pulled into the parking lot , found a spot and turned off the car. 

She turned to face me , "Crying doesn't help if you don't express your feelings. Scared about a new school?" 

I stayed quiet , she sighed "Okay then . . ." Char said opening the car door about to get out 

"I'm not hear because I wanted a vacation." I finally said and she stopped in her tracks , halfway out the car. 

"Okay , I kind of guessed that ." 

It's just me and her in this car and I feel clastraphobic but right now that's much better than being outdoors with people who are unfamiliar to me .

"I'm hear because I think something's wrong with me." 

"Like what ?" she said tapping her fingers on the steering wheel  

"I don't feel right . There's something in my gutt , telling me . Like trying to give me a sign to warn me about something." I said blinking , this time keeping my eyes closed 

"I used to have those feelings." 

"But I think something's wrong with me because I always seem to mess up everything good thing that's supposed to happen to me. I can't even have a successful relationship. Highschool's supposed to be where you figure out what your gonna do in your future life. I'd be surprised if I could even make it out of highschool alive with some of the things that go on with me." I cried even harder 

She wiped one of the tears falling from my eyes , 

"It's not fair.." I started talking again , "Do you know what it's like to be abused mentally and physically ? It's like having your heart ripped out of your chest, without your heart you can't survive , it's your main blood supply. What if someone stomped on it and all the blood is slowly pouring out of your chest, some times I'm suicidal. He makes me that way. He makes me feel like crap. There's no way in God's green earth that someone can tell me that's love. Love is supposed to be magical. It's supposed to come unexpected from the person you fall for. Not someone who says they love you only to make you hate yourself. You tell me if that sounds like love !" I shouted , "Why me God ? What the hell did I ever do to you ?! Damn it !" I kicked the dashboard 

Char reached out to hug me , "I never knew that much was going on in your head. I just thought you were being bipolar, man was I wrong." she laughed .

When Char pulled away her eyes glowed , I couldn't help but stare . 

I stared directly into her eyes , until the bell rang .

I opened the door behind my back and fell onto the concrete .

"Clutz." I heard a girl say , followed by some girls laughing along with her.

I looked and saw 3 girls wearing all pink.