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Chapter 40- The Confession

Alex's Pov

As the days progressed, the tension between us dissolved little by little. It was rough at the start. The first few days, I didn't really hear much from her. In the days that came after that, she seemed to tolerate me better and things started to feel a tad bit more normal. However, I could sense that the hurt and disappointment hadn't yet left her so it was still too soon to confess. But luckily, we soon enough got back to our routine and started seeing each other like before. She seemed fine as well. I knew that the time couldn't be anymore perfect to tell her the truth because if I waited any longer it would be too late. Excited yet circumspect, I took a whole day to myself to plan it all out and then texted Kristen the next afternoon.

I didn't tell her anything except that I wanted to meet her for an evening coffee. She unwittingly agreed. A few hours and I was sitting opposite to her at the Café.

"I didn't tell you this over the phone but... I actually wanted to meet you here to talk about something kind of important." I said.

I was so nervous as I started talking to her that I had to set my cup down and put my hands under the table so she wouldn't notice my nervousness.

"Wow, that's strange. There was actually something I was hoping to talk to you about too..." came the unexpected reply.
"But you go first."

"No, it can wait. Go on."

I was confident that whatever she had to say couldn't possibly ruin my confession.

"I have no idea where to start." She avoided eye contact and kept looking away.

"You know how we've been... doing all this... from the past 4 months? Well, I've been thinking about it a lot." She began.

"I can't lie to you, it's been great. It's brought us closer, helped us understand each other better and..."

"It's just been very fun in general." She remained serious but a smile crept up her lips.

"Right..."

"But there's obviously been a lot of arguments, confusions and problems.  And I'll be honest, I even found myself getting a bit jealous seeing you with other girls..."

I couldn't believe she actually acknowledged it.

"Your jealousy wasn't one sided at all." I admitted but she didn't seem to notice or care very much.

"Yeah well, what I wanted to say was that..." She paused before the climax of the sentence.

From everything she'd said so far and based off her nervous demeanor, I felt this conversation could be taking only one route.

Was she going to confess too? Was the one question on my mind.

"God, this feels very awkward to do." She nervously chewed on her bottom lip.

Her anxiousness was making me anxious.

She couldn't possibly be confessing to me, could she? It sure felt like she was going down that route.

"I don't think we should see each other anymore." She said, quite anticlimatically.

"Oh."

Ofcourse this had to happen right when I'd planned to tell her the truth. Misfortune had dug its claws into me and with no intention of letting go.

"We've done enough damage by mixing sex and friendship together. I feel like if we keep going, I'll get to a point where I'll lose you, lose our friendship. And I can't afford that. I've decided to step back from it all for good. No more hooking up, we'll just be friends."