sin by sparkly

unrequited love

✨he is my world and he didn't even know that ✨

he laid on the grass facing the stary sky . he asked " have you ever been in love sparkly ? "

I looked at my hands and said " if I said no then it would be a lie "

he smiled lightly and asked " did you confessed him "

I nodded my head as no 

he asked " why "

I said slowly " I'm afraid , what if he stops talking to me after knowing that I had feelings for him . what if he ignores me . What if he feels uncomfortable around me . whenever he talks to me my heart blooms , whenever he smiles at me an unknown happiness tickles my stomach . he is not just an another person that i want in my life , he is the one and only person that I wants in my life and if he ignores me I feel dead inside because he is the only person which makes me feel alive . "

he said in a low tone " it sounds painful to love a person who doesn't know about your feeling. one sided love  "

I lied down on the grass beside him facing the sky and said " no ! its the most purest feeling that exist . day by day this love only increase because their is no root to misunderstandings here . their will be no breakups in one sided love . this love lasts till that last breath .  here words will be mute and eyes will speak everything . the only love which doesn't expect anything in return in one sided love . even if the other person hates us but we still keeps on loving him because this one sided love doesn't know how to hate . "

" this one sided love doesn't have happy ending but still we keeps on loving and this proves that how wonderful one sided love is "

" you asks me why I always dream , in dream he is just mine "

he looked at me and asked " is he handsome "

I smiled and said " of course , he is the most handsome man in the world . "

" his eyes holds my galaxy , whenever he looks into my eyes I loose sanity 

he is an art piece and his soul is a master piece 

he is the best creation of god , I have never seen someone better then him I promise on that lord "

he said while looking into my eyes " you are head over heal for that man , just look at yourself , your eyes shines like a diamond when you talk about him , happiness in your face can't be expressed in words . look at the excitement in that calm tone when you talk about him . ahhh I really wanted to see him sparkly "

I said " you can see him in the mirror " 

he looked at me with wide shocked eyes 

I laughed and said " if you have magic mirror , you can stand in front of it and ask mirror mirror who is the most handsome man in this world "

he frowned and said " there is no such mirror in this world "

I busted in laughter when I saw his cute pout face . he laughed along with me 

he then asked " what do you call a poetry in hindi "

I said " shayari "

he smiled and said " I heard lots of sha-ya-ri about your love . but now I wanted hear a sha- ya -ri about me . tell me one "

now who will tell this man that all my poetries are just about him . I looked at those innocent eyes of his and started my shayari 

likhu to likhu tujhe kya likhu 

tu wo ehsaas hai jo sirf mai mehsoos karti hu ,

ghazal likhu to tujhe nazar lag jaati hai .

tujhe paane ka zid hai mera ,

tujhe mouth likhu to ye dill rok jaati hai .

                       {translation}

what should I write you as ?

you are the emotion that only I can feel ,

if I write you as a poetry then you would caught a bad eye .

I wanted you so badly that ,

if I write you as a death then my heart would stop breathing further .

he sighed and said " I know you are not going to translate it . its ok one day I'll learn Hindi and I'll understand it , each and every meaning of your poetry . "

I looked back at the sky and said " all the best "

he then lowered his voice and asked " if a person falls in love does he often thinks about that person , does they go crazy if they didn't get to see their loved one even for a single day , do they keep looking for that one person in the crowd . to they search for the reasons to talk with them "

I nodded my head as yes 

he then said " I think I'm in love "

the moment he said this , I thought I heard wrong so I asked him again 

he replied " the symptoms I mentioned earlier are the symptoms that I had from past 1 month "

my mind became blank as if someone hit me with a rock , my heart sank in this huge cyclone of pain 

he continued " she always keeps popping in my mind , when I look at her everything becomes blur , when she smiles I feel heaven on this earth I can see her smile for the rest of my life "

he was talking about someone he loved and the feelings he had for her are the feelings that I had for him .

I'm surprised to listen my feelings through his mouth but those feelings for someone else .

his every word is hitting my heart so badly , I'm feeling that pain which i can't express but still I keeps on listening him 

I asked him in a low voice with a little smile on my face " who is she "

he said " its arum from our  class , the girls who rarely talks , section B one . I don't know why my heart always wants to see her , that's why I transferred my class  . I tried to talk with her but she always ignores me , I always looks at her but she never looks at me and you know what , my heart aches when she talks to others but not with me "

 I smiled bitterly by listening him .  my heart rips apart when you talk about other girl in front of me ............ c'mon sparkly its not like he is yours . even you know that he was never yours even though you was always his . 

today I got to know that the person I love , loves someone else and it hurts ......................no it kills !

when I looked at his eyes I can see the pain in his eyes , admiration in his words and love in his heart and not even single thing among those is not for me . 

I know its killing me inside but I can't see him sad , I don't want him to go through any pain because seeing him in pain worsens my pain 

I controlled my silly tears and said " don't worry Taehyung . maybe she doesn't know about your feelings . no one can ignore you , maybe she is afraid to talk with you . tomorrow I'll try to ask her about how she feels about you . I bet their is no one that is not interested in you .  you keep smiling Taehyung , tomorrow she will talk to you "

listening to me his face lightened up with a bright smile 

and his smile brough a smile on my face 

my heart is crying and my face is smiling . at this moment I didn't thought that my life is about to take a biggest turn , the turn which I never dreamed about 

                                    🖤A/N🖤

what if he is not written in my fate , I wrote his name on my heart which no one can erase