sin by sparkly

night without light

✨me without you is just like heart without beat ✨

"what do you mean , you are not giving me punishment ? "

she smirked and said " you already chose your punishment .you cursed yourself with the thing called love , get ready to suffer for eternity "

I smiled and went from there without saying anything because I know what she meant and I'm aware of everything but still I'm going to love him and nobody can stop me .

I don't care if he is not in my fate , I will always keep him in my heart . 

Next morning 

I woke really late , its 11:30 .

I sat on my bed and thought about yesterday's night incident . then I got freshened up and had my lunch .

I didn't saw any of the bangtan prince since I woke up . I wonder where they went . 

I went to the main hall to search for them and I don't know why every student seems so excited today . 

I was busy searching for them when I heard yook calling me . I went to him .

he asked " why are you so late "

I don't know about what he is talking about 

he then said " today is drama fest , you don't know about that "

I nodded my head as no . like bro how would I know that , I was busy with my own things 

meanwhile eun bi came and asked " guys have you heard that . seo yul got transferred "

yook was shocked and I was expressionless as I know what really happened with seo yul and where he is 

I sighed and asked " what's this drama fest about "

she said " its actually an acting competition between prestigious schools of the nation . the most exciting part is one of the prince will play as main lead in this drama "

I nodded my head and asked " what's the drama about "

she said " love "

I smiled and said " good , and who will play the female lead "

eun bi sighed and said " not us , only girls from section B is allowed to play  this role as prince is involved in this play "

c'mon can't they treat every one equal at least in the drama . 

she then said " now they are selecting female lead as male lead already selected "

I asked " who is the male lead "

eun bi looked down and said " its V "

wow he is playing a male lead in love drama , I wish I could ............... (*sigh*) I'm not even allowed to think about it . I wonder who is that lucky girl who gets to act with Taehyung 

my thoughts got interrupted when yook said " you are responsible for costumes design and we are responsible for stage decoration "

I nodded my head and went from there 

when I was sitting in the garden , I saw hobi . I went to him and asked " where were you guys all this time "

he smiled and said " we were actually called for selection "

I asked " where are everyone else "

he said " they went to dorms as they are so tired , you know what this drama selection team is so tough man , they made us do every stunt and every expression just for a 30 minutes play . huh its so tiring "

I can see how tired he is . I asked " everyone came "

he sighed and said " no ! V didn't came . he got selected and now he has to practice a lots of dialogues and facial expression so he will be busy "

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today's day was really lifeless , I haven't seen Taehyung whole day . I didn't even got a glimpse of him . I'm feeling dead from inside 

all colors got faded , I feel like I lost the light of my eyes . today I haven't seen the most beautiful view . 

something is wrong with me , everyone seems so excited except me . not even a single thing is exciting me . I feel like I'm in deserted island . 

I'm missing something and that something is really important to me 

my day is missing sun and night is missing moon . at this moment life feels like the book without words . I wanted to write something happy in that book but I'm missing pen . even if I borrowed someone else's pen to write something good in my book I couldn't even write a single word because the main important thing that I'm missing is my heart and without my heart I can't even write a single letter in my book . 

I'm feeling lifeless and I'm feeling stupid because  I'm craving for the breath and the mostly I wanted the person who steals my breath . 

with him around me feels like the days as minutes and without him even a second feels like eternity 

I know my eyes craved for me but today I realized how much they wanted him in front of them 

I tried sleeping because at least in my dreams I can see him but my bad luck stole my sleep . 

so I went outside , deep in the forest  , to the pond which has the beautiful admirer in the world . 

I smiled looking at this pond . the person I love , loves this pond . how lucky this pond is to get loved by the person i love .

I looked at the moon , its half moon . 

I smiled and thought everything seems so changed and boring 

I looked at moon and shouted " hey !! have you seen him . I haven't saw him today ahh shibal my life sucks "

" you haven't seen whom " 

I heard a deep voice behind , my eyes got filled with tears 

the tears which I'm holding from the morning is now trying to escape . 

I wanted to hold those tears but it was really impossible to hold those tears now 

I wiped my tears and turned to look at my heaven 

badi mehfil me hum tanha hogai 

kyu ki wo mehfil me wo nai tha jiske upper mere aankhen fana hogai 

                 [Translation ]

in the biggest gathering I was alone 

because my eyes didn't saw the person who they own 

he sighed and said " now i think i have to learn hindi to understand you words because every time you say something in hindi and i look at you with a blank face . anyways what are you doing here talking to the moon ?"

i smiled and nodded my head 

he looked at me with worried face and asked " why are you crying "

i didn't even realized my eyes were shedding tears . i quickly wiped them and said " nothing i think something went into my eyes "

he pocked his inner cheek and said " do i look like a child to you , tell me what happened "

i looked down and said " I don't know , from the morning I felt empty "

he sighed and said " if you are all alone like this you will definitely feel empty , you should be with the person who will listen to you and who will talk with you . be with a person who doesn't makes you feel alone "

I looked down at my fingers and said with a pout " that person was busy today practicing the dialogues of the drama "

                               🖤A/N🖤

I wish one day I'll meet that one person 

to whom i miss 24/7