sin by sparkly

pain

✨everybody knows except you ✨

next morning 

I went to that girl called arum . arum means beautiful in Korean and she is beautiful . 

I went to her and asked about her opinion on Taehyung . she said all positive things and it looks like she like V . c'mon who doesn't like him 

so I said that he wanted to date her and she was shocked , surprised . she screamed in happiness . 

everyone heard her happy screams but no one heard my painful screams that going inside my heart 

I took her to the garden area where V was waiting for her . 

as soon as he saw her he became nervous . I can sense that in his eyes . but this girl was good at words . so he just chilled his soul .

I turned and went from there to give them some private space . 

my steps were heavy and refusing to move away from him . my heart was mourning . my eyes were holding an ocean . 

I quickly ran from there and came into my dorm . 

as soon as I entered I saw rest of the princes . 

Suga said " what have you done sparkly "

Jimin came towards me and said " I told you to confess him right "

JK asked " if you love him how can you set him with other girl "

I hold my tears and replied " he was not mine , he didn't loved me "

Hobi asked " how did you know that he didn't liked you , did he said that "

I smiled bitterly and said " he like me but he love someone else "

RM asked "  you love him right , how can you let him go "

I looked into his eyes and asked " yes I love him but what about his love . are you saying me to be selfish "

Jin sighed and said " fine then stop loving him "

my heart sank when he said this . tears rolled from my eyes which I tried to control a lot . 

I wiped my tears and said you are saying me to kill myself "

Jin said in a shocked worried tone " I didn't mean that , you know right now he is not your so ........... "

I interrupted him and said " yesterday night I didn't slept . only one thought was roaming inside my mind 

my brain says that ' stop loving him ,he is not mine '

what I heard was ' stop breathing its waste of time ' 

if killing myself was the only solution , I would have killed myself the moment he announced his love . but this heart ........... it only beats for him and I don't want to kill that heart with my own hands . 

I don't wanted to die , I wanted to live every moment of my life with him even if its a painful moment I still love to enjoy it 

you all asked me that how can I let him go ! did you saw his face when he is with her . it lighten ups like sun just like mine when I'm with him . I see myself in him . I can feel his emotions how can I stop him from his happiness . 

I can sacrifice my happiness for him but I can't kill his happiness just for my love , my love is not that selfish . 

Suga was about to say something but I stopped him and said " this matter ends here, no one will spoil his happiness , promise me "

they all hesitated first but I forced them to make a promise 

at night he came into my room with bundle of words to express how his date went today . he seems so happy talking about her . 

he looked like a child telling a fairytale . 

wo uske baata karte reh gaya 

aur mai uski baate sunnte reh gayi 

inn baato baato me pata nai kab 

raat subaha hogaya aur din  mahine hogaye 

                       { translation } 

he kept talking about her 

I kept listening to him 

in these talks I didn't even realized 

when this night became morning and when these days became months 

months have been passed and one day he came to me and said that he is going to propose her for marriage 

at that moment only god know how I felt like . my soul got parted away from my body and my heart ripped into millions of pieces . my little happiness got shattered in front of me 

he then said in a low tone " I'll miss you sparkly "

I asked him in a broken tone " why ...... your girlfriend doesn't wants to see me with you after marriage "

he sighed and said " no ! after marriage of prince , prince will be no longer prince he will be the king and king must return to his kingdom with his queen and there you will be not present . I'll miss you there . I'll miss your shayari , I'll miss your company . who will I talk with , who will I share my happiness and sorrow with "

my tears were struggling to escape but I became master in preventing  those tears to fall  . 

I smiled and said " you can share those all with your future wife "

he sighed and said " my wife can't be my best friend.................................... you will come to my marriage right ? "

 I looked into his eyes with my teary eyes and said 

chupakar apne dard ko , tere dard baatne aaungi mai 

teri mohobbat ki kahani sunne ke khatir ek pal ke liye apni ektarfa mohobbat bhool kar aaungi mai 

aisahi silsila chalta rahega aur ek din aisa aaungi mai

khushiyon se bhare tere mehfil me apne aankhon ke aasu chupakar aaungi mai 

tere shaadi dekhne ke khatir apne mouth ko ek pal ke liye rok kar aaungi mai 

                       { translation }

I'll hide my pain and come to share your pain 

for a few minutes I'll forget my one sided love and come to listen to your love story 

and this trend will continue and one day I'll come like this 

in your happiest gathering I'll hide my tears behind my happy image 

 I'll stop my death and come to see your marriage 

                                        🖤A/N🖤

when my reality has sad ending 

I took my open and wrote a number of stories that have happy ending