sin by sparkly

sinner

✨silly me fears losing you when I don't even owns you ✨

he asked " why did you didn't told me "

I looked into his eyes and said " I might be poetess for you but you don't know this poetess lack words when she is in front of you , how should I confess when there are no words which can express the dept of my feelings . and there is no rule that says like we should confess to the person that we love , I can love you silently for the rest of my life "

" yesterday's night you told me about the moon , I can't relate to that because I never loved that moon . in front of you moon is nothing to me , tell me every bad thing you did , tell me all your negatives I'll still love you the way I loved you . I don't crave for your body because I loved your soul . my love for you won't decrease it just increases day by day "

you said love is just a beautiful name with lustful feelings . no Taehyung you are wrong , for me love is just another name given to devotion . whenever you look at me and smiles my heart races and you said it a warning from heart that says don't go near that person or else I'll get broken into pieces ....... no Taehyung its not a warning . my heart just reminds me that hey look I'm alive and I'm  beating for that one person . 

he asked " why me ! "  

I said " if you ask for the reason I have never ending reasons , do you have infinity time to listen my reasons "

 he asked am I that precious to you 

I'm bad at words , just look at my eyes when they see you , you will get to know how precious you are to me 

"how can you not be precious to me , the moment when I thought I was invisible you waved at me , the moment when I thought I  was deaf you told all your stories to me , the moment when everyone blamed me you proved I'm innocent , you are the person who cared about me , you are the reason I smile and live "

he looked away and said " stop loving me sparkly cause I don't love you and I don't want you to love me "

I smiled and said " I won't Taehyung , no one can stop me from loving you , not even you "

he shouted " you will die "

I said calmly " I'm ready to die , who need this life where I can't even love you "

he said " this love is the curse sparkly , it will kill you from inside , the pain which you go through you won't be able to put them into words , you will suffer each and every moment of your life , you will regret your whole life for loving me because I don't love you and this fact will kill you every time you look at me "

I smiled and replied " I'm already cursed Taehyung and if the reason is you I would love to suffer till my last breath . its ok if you don't love me , I'll give all my love to you . you said I'll die every time I look at you ,  I'm ready to die millions of time to look at you "

he gulped and asked " if you love me this much then why did you let me date other girl , why haven't you said anything , why did you supported me and listened my love story , why did you didn't stopped me ??"

tears rolled as I said " I don't have any right to stop you because you was never mine "

he asked " if I was not your then why did you wasted your feelings on me "

I said " you was not mine but my heart was always yours , it only has feelings for you "

he sighed and said " stop it sparkly , don't love me anymore or else you will face the worse "

I chuckled and said " even at my worst I'll love you  , who's gonna stop me ? "

he came near and looked into my eyes and said " I'll show you how painful this love is and I'll make you change the meaning of this love , you will regret loving me and one day you yourself will ask me to set me free . I'll prove that love can't last for long " 

he then grabbed my hand and started walking . I stopped him by asking " where are you taking me Taehyung "

he said " you said I was never yours right , I'm taking you to make you mine "

I didn't understood , not even a single word . my whole brain was blank 

arum said " she is not going anywhere , she has to receive punishment "

he asked while gritting his teeth " who the hell are you to give punishment to her , she will be the queen of this king and who dares to punish queen "

everyone was shocked along with me , my hands were shivering . his words were not being shy to give me heart attack . what the actual heck did he said right now 

bang pd stepped forward and said "you are not going to do that "

he smirked and said " I'm going to do that and no one gonna stop me "

I said in a broken tone " n..no Taehyung , you are not in your right mind , leave my hand " I tried to remove his grip from my hand but his grip was so tight I failed to loosen his grip 

he smirked and asked " what happened sparkly , you told that you loved me . lets go and get married "

I looked into his eyes which were filled with anger . I said " I love you but you don't love me , you will regret your decision Taehyung , stop doing this "

he bent to my level and said " I'm not the one who'll regret , I'll make you regret for loving me "

he took me out of the school and made me sit in the car . he looked so serious right now 

I tried to talk but he stopped me . 

he took me to one big building which looked like a palace . there were so many servant who took me and made me dolled up like a bride . 

I was lost in my thoughts , have you even seen world turning upside down . I experienced that today . a few minutes ago I was about to receive the death punishment and now I'm being ready to get married . and I'm going to marry that one person who seems dream to me . wait is this a dream , am I dreaming again . when will I wake up , hope I never . 

my thoughts got interrupted when I saw him in front of me . he was looking at me and when I looked at him , he looked away .  I sense guilty in his eyes 

he said " come we are getting late "

I stood and said " you don't have to do this if you are not willing to "

he said " I know what I'm doing , and I will do that "

he took me to the big stage where I saw the priest standing . 

what!! is this happening for real . the person who is never mine is now going to be mine . I didn't even dreamed about getting his heart but now he is giving his surname to me . this is the dream that I wanted so badly to come true . 

then I heard priest saying " do you take sparkly to be your lawfully wedded wife "

my heart raced when I heard this sentence . I looked at Taehyung .

he said " yes I do " with a straight face . my eyes got opened wide 

then the priest asked me " do you take KIM TAEHYUNG to be your lawfully wedded  husband "

my words got stuck , I was unable to speak . my heart was racing and my whole body became numb . 

he looked at me and said " say yes if you love me "

I took a long breath and said " yes I .........do "

                   🖤A/N🖤

the one who wrote my fate never wrote him as mine , that's why I became writer to write him as mine