sin by sparkly

pond

✨he thinks he is the villain of my story but he don't know that I love villains ✨

Taehyung's pov : 

its all my fault 

I married her to save her from death punishment , I thought she will be fine under my vision , I thought she will at least get treated better after marrying me . 

but no I was wrong , even after becoming queen she still get treated the same , and now I think I dragged her to more worst . 

I know she will get treated badly more in future specially with my parents , they won't accept her . 

I just wanted to save her from hell but now I dragged her into bigger hell . she turned her heaven into hell just for loving me and I wanted to turn that hell back into heaven but how !!! 

she is my best friend I did so worst to her . why she has to love me , why it has to be me . 

I don't deserve her love , I'm the biggest villain of her life , because of me , because of loving me she is facing all worst , she endured a lot of pain by watching me with other girl but still she hid all that pain behind her smile . she even got ready to take death punishment just because of me , and now she married a  broken heart person who can't love her . now who will tell her once broken can never be fixed and if it is fixed, it can never be same as before . 

I stopped talking to her not because I don't want to but because I'm afraid ..................... I'm afraid that I would say something so mean to her , I'm afraid that I would hurt her without knowing . 

I'm dying inside , I wanted to share this with her but I can't . 

why she has to love a person that can't love her back and why I'm unable to love a person who loves me so bad 

I don't know . 

I went inside her room to check her , she was sleeping . 

I went to her and placed my hand on her forehead to check temperature , she is fine 

I took a relaxing breath . 

she opened her eyes and looked at me with her innocent eyes 

I removed hand from her forehead . she sat on the bed by crossing her legs and asked " what happened Taehyung , you look worried "

I sighed and asked " how are you feeling right now "

she said " I'm fine , its just a monthly routine "

sparkly's pov :

he looked really worried as something is bothering him .

I asked him " if something is bothering you then tell me .... you can share with me ,you said wife can't become best friend but now your best friend became your wife you can share your problems with me "

he smiled firmly and said "I was just worried about you but now you seems fine . I'm fine too "

he went from there leaving in the thoughts like ............. I want to know his problem but what if I'm his problem 

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at night 

I went out in the garden and there I saw Taehyung sitting near the pool . 

I went to him and asked " you like ponds right "

he nodded his head as yes 

I smiled and said " I know ................. you used to admire our school pond too ............. do you feel any connection between ponds and you "

he smiled and said " its beautiful , even in the morning , evening , night , its beautiful . it heard many stories , many laughter , many cries but still it remains silent . it doesn't share others secrets with someone else , it just listens . and no one listens to it. how sad it is when you are present to listen everyone but when your turn comes no one listens . 

this pond has many stories  rotting inside it and every night I come here to listen its stories . its voice gives me peace "

I looked at him without blinking , he looked at me and said " come sit beside me "

I sat beside him . 

he then told me to place my feet inside the pond . I refused and he said " its a therapy to calm your brain , do it "

I did as he said and when I placed my feet inside I felt tickling sensation because of tiny fishes kissing my feet . I laughed

he looked at me and said " look ! it gives you peace and makes you laugh . whenever I feel down I'll come here to cleanse my soul . this pond is just like a paradise to me "

 I looked at him and said " and you are my paradise "

he looked at me with a confused face 

I smiled and said " when I'm with you , I feel happy , you are peace to my fighting soul , I feel refreshed when i see you , no matter how bad my day is , once I look at you my whole heart feels like heaven . in this whole world you are the only person who makes me smile , your name is enough to bring smile on my face 

if you like ponds then just look into my eyes , they hold ocean inside it and that ocean is just for you . I don't know what stories this pond tells but my ocean always says one thing ..........I'm yours forever "

he looked away and said " forever doesn't exist"

I said " even if I didn't exist in future my forever will exist "

he chuckled and said " this love is just a foolish thing , loving someone crazily , making promises to live together happily every thing is just so stupid . once they get new people they forget about you , they don't care about you , whether you cry or laugh it won't bother them anymore "

I said " all people are not same Taehyung 

"tere hasne se koi hasta hai , tu haske to dekh 

tere sang sara wakt betane ke wade to bohot log karte hai 

tere kehne par koi marta hai , tu aazma ke to dekh "

                           {translation}

your smile brings smile on someone's face , just smile and see 

people might make promises to live together with you 

but someone is willing to sacrifice their life for you , if you don't believe then test them and see 

I was waiting for him to ask me about the meaning of poetry but

 he said "this love is just like walking on thorns , I walked once and I regret , I don't want to walk other time "

I looked down and said " just walk one more time for , just one more time ...........I'll place my hands beneath your feet , I won't let you get a single scratch  . I can hurt myself but not you "

he looked at me and said " and do you think I'll let you get hurt "

i smiled and asked " and do you think I'll let you walk on thorns ...................if you are willing to be mine forever i place this whole damn earth with flowers ..............................without thorns "

he looked into my teary eyes and i looked into his stary eyes and that moment i wished it lasts forever but next moment he stood and went from there . 

                               🖤A/N🖤

they asked " what did you see in him 

I said " nothing , my whole universe "