sin by sparkly

curse

✨I love your smile but I was never the reason ✨

Taehyung's pov :

now a days I'm feeling so happy for little reasons . world seems different to me . may be because I fall in love . ahh I don't know but its different . different feeling I'm unable to put them on words 

I don't know how sparkly express this things . its easy for her cause she is a poetess man ! 

now a days I'm spending lots of time with arum . she doesn't talks with everyone like the way she talks with me . this thing melts me . 

she likes presents a lot , and when I give her surprise the expressions on her face says how happy she is , and I like her to see happy that's why I give at least one present to her everyday . 

we became the most famous couple in the school in the past few months 

today I'm going to do marriage proposal . 

its night exactly 11:00 . arum must be sleeping till now because she is a sleepy head . so I'm going  in her dorm room to surprise her with diamond ring and propose her . she will remember this for rest of her life 

I got ready and went into the dorm of section B . no one stopped me because I'm prince and I can go anywhere . I don't need any permission . 

I stood outside her door , revising my proposal lines . I was so nervous again . my heart was racing a lot. I took a long deep breath and calmed my self before opening the door . 

and when I opened the door of her room , my eyes opened wide seeing the scene in front of me . my heart got broke and shattered into pieces 

my eyes witnessed the most unexpected thing . I saw arum making out with her boy bestie seo jun . 

as soon as they saw me she pushed him away by setting her cloths . she came near me and said " its not what you think V , we were just talking "

I looked at her and asked " you were just talking , what kind of conversation is this arum . "

she tried to touch me but I moved away form her and said " don't touch me with those disgusting hands of yours . you said you would sleep by this time right , today I got to know your real meaning of sleep . "

I went by shutting the door and she came running and held my hands by saying " I'm sorry V , this is the last time , I just .......... "

I shouted by saying " STOP !!!!!!!!!  just shut your mouth ! its my biggest mistake  falling for a characterless person like you , don't ever show yourself in front of me "

she furrowed her brows and asked " c'mon V , its common now a days , why are you making such an issue . "

I sighed and said " is it a common thing , this is what people call love . loving someone and cheating on them . is this a love  "

she poked her inner cheek and said " yes it is love because no matter how many people you date with , you are going to marry just a single person . you are not going to marry every person you date right because you only love the person you marry . and I love you "

I furrowed my brows and said " i didn't even know that love such a disgusting thing . i did a very big mistake ............. i should have never fell in love "

I went and didn't even looked at her 

I went directly into the forest where I find my piece , the pond which I admire the most . 

my brain was flashing that seen in front of me for millions of times and every time my heart is going through a stinging pain . 

for the first time I loved someone so badly and now I'm suffering . I thought that love is the most beautiful thing on this earth because this words seemed  different to me . this world suddenly became colorful and I fell in love with each and every thing on this earth . but now the same world seems colorless and I'm hating every beautiful thing . 

the moon which gave piece to my heart now  irritating me . this cold wind is making me hard to breath . 

this pond , swans in it , moon in the sky I'm unable to see anything . everything seems so dark to me . 

falling for someone is the biggest mistake because you can't stand on your feet after you fall . 

love doesn't gives you reason to live , it gives you reasons to die . its a curse to fall in love with someone . mainly in this generation . 

love is the curse and I don't want to be cursed 

I shouted " there is no such thing called love ... its all fake !!!! "

then I heard that sweet voice of hers " Taehyung ! "  

I turned to look at her . she always looks at me with those happy eyes of hers , but today her eyes seems worried . 

she came towards me and asked " what happened Taehyung ? is everything fine "

I laughed bitterly and said " if I look fine then you wouldn't have asked me this question sparkly . .................. I just got dumped by myself . I did the biggest mistake by thinking that true love exists but no I was wrong , their is no such thing called true love . everyone here craves for either money or body . I learned the biggest lesson of my life today , don't let your heart rule you . "

I pointed on my chest and said " this heart is the most stupid thing or may be we humans are the most stupid creatures . this heart always warns us by racing its pace but we think that its love . no it just wanted to warn you that don't go near that person or else I will get break into millions of pieces (*laughs*) and do you know what people named this warning as heart fluttering . huh silly people "

sparkly let me give you the friendly advise ........... stop fooling yourself with this thing called love . there is no such thing in this world , don't waste your energy on this stupid thing , you will regret your whole life ............... don't love anyone . stop loving . 

love is just a waste of time . It kills you from inside 

she asked with a teary eyes " Taehyung I think you are not in your right sense "

I laughed and said " no sparkly ! I came to my right sense after these many months . I was just fooling my self from past few months . I thought love is the most precious feeling but today I got to know its real meaning . its just a beautiful name with lustful feelings "

I bent to her level and said " sparkly you are just other stupid girl who thinks love is pure feelings , its just because you don't have a closer bond with the person you love . everyone loves the moon from far but when they see that moon from near they hate it because its nothing but a  rough , dusty and barren land where people can't even survive a single second . once you get close with the person you love , you will get to know his negatives and you will eventually hate him . just spend one night with him your love will get decrea.........."

before I finish saying I felt a rough slap on my cheek . that sound echoed and for the first time I saw anger in her eyes . 

                                                🖤A/N🖤

give me million reasons to hate you , for every reason I'll say I love you