Love or Lust *MAJOR EDITING*

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✧ Desiree

i sighed as i put my clothes back on. why would he walk out like that? does he really love me? was i bad at it?

i walked back downstairs and sat back next to scarlet and sammy. scarlet looked over at me concerned but i just shook my head, not wanting to talk about it. i look around and see matt is no where to be found. i don't even know what i did wrong. a tear left my eye but i quickly wiped it away.

of course, gianna and hayes walk over to the circle late as usual. there clothes were ripped up and their hair was all over the place.

"why do you guys always fuck before you do something?" i blurt out as the circle laughs. gianna blushed as hayes pulls her close.

"because she cant get enough of me" he smirked as she hits his arm. they both sit down and join the circle. we were all just playing truth or dare and having a good time. matt just wouldn't leave my mind. why does i ever have feelings for him, when i knew he was just going to break my heart?

"the night is still young" i said sarcastically as i took a swig of the beer in my hand.

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3:00 AM

i laughed as johnson tickled my sides. everyone else left so it was just my squad and matt squad, expect matt won't be joining us.
ever since i drank my sixth bottle of beer, matt didn't even cross my mind. i was having to much fun to worry about him.

gianna was sitting next to me just laughing at my stupidity. i looked over at her and hayes sitting next to each other.

"so, is it big?"i slurred into her ear so hayes couldn't hear.

"what??" she looked at me confused.

"you know, his dick, is it big?" i said making a hand gesture to show how big i meant. she laughed and nodded her head. we both looked at each other and laughed again.

"whatcha guys laughing at?" hayes said now turning attention to us.

"shhhh! don't tell him" i said placing my index finger over my mouth. gianna did the same and
giggled.

"nothing babe" she smirked and turned back to me as we carried on a conversation once again.

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4:00 AM

i decided to give matt a call because my drunken brain told me too. i knew i would regret it but i couldn't stop.

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"hey this is matts voicemail, can't get to the phone right now bye!"

"hey matt, see you don't want to talk to me" i laughed and continued to speak, "so yeah, you missed out. i don't really know why you ran out like that. was i b-bad? do you not love me? am i not good enough? well sorry i guess" i stifled and wiped the tears, "bye matt"

i hung up the phone. more tears purrs out of my eyes. i walked out the front door to the porch. i sat outside just watching the few cars go by. the street lamps above lit the town ever so slightly. the sound of crickets chirping and leaves rustling in the wind in that background. the houses were dark and quiet.

"desiree, why are you sitting out her by yourself? you love being around friends" gianna said plopping down next to me on the wooden step. i sighed and began to explain.

"matt, gosh i love him so much. i know it may not seem like it but i do. the moment he caught my eye he stole alittle part of my heart. the thing is..." i paused taking a breath, "i don't think he feels the same way".

"hey, you know what? tomorrow a girls day. just you and me. we can go shopping, go out to lunch, maybe even go to a club or something" she suggested and i smiled.

"that's sounds like fun!" i said nodding.

"great! now let's go back inside"

"im tired i think i just want to go home." i said yawning. she nodded and grabbed her keys inside. i hopped in the car and she did to and we drove off.

once we got there, i hopped out and thanked her for the ride. I quietly unlocked the front door and went upstairs. i slipped into more comfortable clothing and went to bed.

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shitty chapter, I know it's just a filler