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Im just speed walking out of my work place, trying to avoid eye contact with everyone so they dont even attempt to socialize with me, when I hear someone call my name.
"Aaliyah!?!" I freeze in my tracks. Nobody calls me that anymore. Everyone at work knows me as Ali. Everyone I've spoken to in the last 5 years knows me as Ali. Which means...
"K-Kellin!?!" I turn around slowly and see him standing there, at the end of the street. He looks older, smarter and more beautiful than I remember. He's wearing a beanie. And my only thought in that precious moment is:

Sexuality? KellinSexual.

At first we just stand there, an awkward couple of seconds passing by. Then he clears his throat "Its been a while..."
I nod "Yeah, it has, 5 years. It was nice seeing you again." I turn around and start speed walking away, desperate to avoid this situation.
I hear hurried footsteps and suddenly someone has there hand around my arm "Wait!"
I turn around again, eyes filled with tears "Why? I dont want an apology Kellin! There's nothing to say! Im not letting you back in, if thats what you're after. I knew I never should have, but I did anyway, and look where that got me! Even more depressed than before! Crying myself to sleep most nights, wondering what the hell I did wrong!"
Kellin shakes his head as his own eyes fill with tears "Im so sorry Aaliyah, really I am. You have to believe me! I didnt want to leave, I hated the thought of it! But I had to!"
"Yeah, but you didnt have to cut me off!" I cry.
"Didnt I? If I'd stayed in contact with you, would it've helped? To know that I was thousands of miles away, not able to talk to you properly!?! Even though I couldnt stand leaving you, I had to do what was best for you. I had to let you go completely. Now look at you, strong, beautiful and independent! You did it Aaliyah, you escaped!" He smiles widely at me.
"How can I be strong if Im crying right now!?! For months I waited for you, to visit, to call, or even just to text me! I didnt care that I was alone, I cared that I'd lost the only thing that ever brought me happiness! There's a saying: Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly. Well, the angel that taught me how to fly made me so happy, I felt like I belonged, then he dropped me, let me fall to the ground, it hurt so much Kellin! I was left, limping towards my goal! And here I am, I finally achieved it! But I dont feel any better! And you wanna know why? Because for the 5 days you were with me you became part of my goal, and I lost you!" I sob.
Kellin softens and he pulls me into his arms. I clutch his shirt and cry. He rubs circles in my back "Shhh, its alright, shhhh. Im so sorry I wasnt there for you, really I am. But Im back now, and Im not going to leave you ever again, I promise. So please, let me back in?"
I shake my head "H-How do I know for sure you wont leave me like last time!?!"
"Because this time I've got proof." I raise an eyebrow at him as he pulls away from me, fishing through his jean pockets. Eventually he finds whatever he was looking for and pulls it out. I see clearly thats its a ring. He slides it onto my ring finger "I promise I wont leave you again, and this ring represents that."
I smile down at the beautiful band on my finger, its perfect. I look up at Kellin, still smiling, and roll my eyes. "You know I can never say no to you!" And then he pulls me back into his arms again, and I feel some of the pieces of my heart join together again.

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