Despising you

Chapter 17

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Am I mentally unstable? Did I fall and temporarily lose all my senses, or am I just the dumbest person on the planet? Clearly, something is wrong with me because I just kissed Jennie Kim...and I loved it.

Her nimble hands on my waist, those soft lips engulfing me in a kiss that was so passionate and hot, but so gentle at the same time. That kiss was something out of a movie. I felt pure desire rattling my bones and fireworks bouncing off every inch of my body.

How did this happen? Kissing Jennie? She is the worst person I know. What was I thinking?

Clearly, I wasn't thinking, like at all. It just felt so incredible and I couldn't stop it, now I'm here and it's all I can think about.

I've spent the last few days avoiding her at school and she's clearly done the same. Now, it's Friday night and I'm in the car with my friends, but I still can't stop thinking about her.

I've been hiding the kiss from my friends, which has been exceedingly difficult, because I don't hide much from them. I hate keeping secrets from them because I desperately want to talk to someone about the kiss. I need my friends to knock some sense into me and slap me silly for kissing Jennie.

"I'm so nervous for my match next week," Jimin says, while chewing gum.

Jisoo is driving while I'm in the passenger seat and Jimin is at the back. That's the downfall of being the only man in this friendship; he always sits at the back. He's a giant anyway; there's more space for him there.

"Don't be, there's no way you're losing," I say gently, turning my head to the back, ignoring my own tumultuous thoughts.

Jimin is a wild beast when it comes to boxing, it's been his lifelong passion since we were kids. Right now, he boxes for one of the most notorious gyms in England. He often talks about going professional when we leave school this year and honestly, he has the ability.

"You're amazing in the ring; you have nothing to worry about," Jisoo says turning the car left and Jimin smiles at us.

We slip into silence as Jisoo continues to drive. We're on our way to a party right now, thrown by the Lacrosse team captain, Alex.

I tend to stay away from parties thrown by the entitled kids at YG, I prefer partying with people who have actual personalities.

However, I do actually get along with Alex as I used to tutor him a few years ago, so I couldn't turn his invitation down.

We're getting closer and closer to Alex's house and I find myself bubbling over. Normally, when my friends and I enter a silence, it's comfortable, peaceful even. But right now, it's the complete opposite. I can feel the stress constricting my throat and words begging to leave my mouth, I need to tell them about Jennie.

I don't usually discuss Jennie with them, at least I do it less now that I've started tutoring her. Even when they ask me how it's going with the tutoring, I just give noncommittal one-word answers. However, this is important, I need to tell them.

They need to know about the kiss.

"Jennie and I kissed," I blurt out quickly, closing my eyes and covering my ears.

I expect to be hit with an onslaught of screaming and confusion, maybe even a few slaps on my head and face. I can't bear to look at the disappointment and shock on their faces.

A few seconds go by and I don't hear or feel anything, so I open my eyes slowly, expecting to see their shocked faces. What I don't expect is to see them looking casual and I certainly don't expect what Jimin says next.