Despising you

Chapter 38

J e n n i e

I don't say anything to Lisa about how she didn't say I love you back to me or how she pretended like I didn't say it. I don't mention it for the next few days after our date and somehow, it's been months and it's as if I never said it at all.

I don't regret saying it, I meant every word. The only thing I regret is not saying it again. I haven't so much as uttered the word "love" again toward her.

For the most part, everything has been as impeccable as ever—the same dates, the same perfect sex—but I'd be lying if I said that the feeling of dread hasn't been gnawing at my chest this last month.

We haven't spoken about what I said and even if I did bring it up now, she'd probably be too busy. I've only seen her a handful amount of times this month because she's been busy making final touches in preparations for her brother's wedding.

"Hey, you okay?" Tae snaps his fingers in my face, getting my attention.

We just had our final math exam and my brain is completely fried. Most of my exams are now finished but I still have biology left. Lisa already did her biology exam early and the rest of them besides English.

"Yeah, just tired." I sigh, rubbing my head. "What were you saying?"

"I was asking for your tailor's name. You know the one who does the tuxes?" He ruffles his hair around.

"Victor? Yeah I can give you his number. Why?"

"For Jungkook's wedding next week," he says, shutting his locker.

"You're invited to that?" I ask, shocked.

"Yeah, I'm Jisoo's plus one." He furrows his eyebrows. "Didn't Lisa tell you?"

She hasn't told me much about the wedding. I even asked her about what dress she would be wearing, but she didn't respond. I just assumed there wasn't much news pertaining to it.

I shake my head. "Not really."

"Well, maybe it's because she knows you don't want to be out yet. She's probably just being cautious," he says gently, putting his hand on my shoulder.

Or maybe Jungkook didn't want to invite me, I know he's not my biggest fan so it makes sense.

I nod. "I'll ask her about it later, I haven't even seen her this morning."

"She didn't come to school," Tae says, confused like I should already know this.

"She didn't?"

"No, Chu said she's sick."

"Sick?!"

***

"Have you taken any medicine? Since when have you been sick? Last night you went to bed early. Were you sick then? Have you gone to the hospital?"

"Nini... " she interrupts me mid ramble with an amused smile on her face, "I told you it's just a cold. I'm fine."

As soon as Tae told me she was sick I went to every single one of her classes and picked up her notes, along with some chicken noodle soup, a hamper of her favourite snacks and some medicine.

Fine? Fine? Her voice sounds nasally obstructed and there's a box full of tissues near her. In my mind, that's no worse than being on her death bed!

"It's not fine!" I say to her. "Answer my questions please."

"I took some medicine a few hours ago—"

"More than four?"

"Yes?"