Betrayal - Mattheo Riddle

Chapter 45

It's been a week since I found out about Mattheo dark mark and Sirus death. All I can say is that I've been numb. Crying all the time. I've been sleeping.

Pansy keeps trying to talk to me, but I'm not answering her. I don't want to talk to anyone. Not even Harry. I need to sort my own head out.

I woke up early on Sunday morning and must have been around five am. I love the summer mornings, so light and warm. I put on a baggy jumper to cover up most of my body as I was just wearing a crop top and shorts.

I quietly exited the room and walked to the astronomy tower. Lighting a cigarette, I watched how all the different colours hit the lake and the school. So pretty.

The smoke that I was blowing out danced amongst the colours. And I felt peace for the first time in a week.

I let out one last breath. I closed my eyes and felt the warmth of the sun hit my face. Today. Today is going to be a good day.

I smiled then turned around and to my surprise. Mattheo was standing there.

I retract everything I've just said. Today isn't going to be a good day.

"Thought I'll catch you up here," He said, looking down through his eyelashes.

I gave him a second smile before trying to get past him.

"Y/n, please, can we talk?" He stepped in front of the door so I couldn't get past.

"I have nothing to say, Mattheo," trying to hold back tears again and looking at my feet.

"Y/n, please look at me,"

I took a breath and moved my head up to see that there were tears rolling down his cheeks.

I tried to stay emotionless. I know he was hurting, but so was I.

"Y/n. I love you,"

My heart stopped. What was I meant to say to that. I hate you. You broke my heart. You betrayed me. I can't trust you. I love you too.

"Mattheo, I can't do this right now," and tried to get past him

He stood his ground until I looked up at him.

"Princess, please,"

"Don't call me that," I snapped

He looked me in the eyes. And put his hand against mine.

I snapped my hand from his touch. Even though that's the one thing I crave the most, It just hurt me too much.

"I can't do this right now." I pushed him out of the way and walked down the halls.

I rushed to the nearest broom cupboard and locked the door. I sat with my back against it and started to cry.

My mind is saying not to trust him. It's all an act. Like how I was at first.
My heart is saying to give him one more chance. You love him.

I heard a little tud against the door. Like someone was leaning against it. I tried to control my breathing so they would go away.

"Y/n, I know you're in there,"

The voice was at the same level as you, so he also sat with his back against the door.

"I'm going to tell you something, and then it's up to you what happens next."

There was a brief moment of silence before he continued.

"We both know that we started off as each other missions. But at the end of the day, we can't lie to each other anymore. You're mine."

"What makes you think I'm yours?"

"Because princess. You crave my touch."

I stood up and opened the door. He flew backwards, so his head was in between my feet.

He gingerly got up and rubbed the back of his neck before I grabbed his top and dragged him into the cupboard.

I got a fist full of his hair and pulled his hair down to my level.

"I'm not yours,"

"Oh, but princess, you are. Just as I'm yours,"

My grip got a little bit looser as he said that. I didn't know how to react. He still wanted to be with me.

No. I'm sorry, but you can't trust him.

"Right, so you're mine. Sure. Do you think I'm a dumb blonde? Because you said some convincing words to get me to trust you again?"

He didn't know how to reply.

"I'm sorry for what is about to happen, but I can't help myself."

He grabbed the back of my head with one hand and my waist with the other. He then smashed his lips against mine. The passion coming from this man couldn't be put on. He was kissing me like he knew it could be the last time.

I couldn't help it and matched perfectly with his lips. I never wanted it to end, but once the trust has been broken, it's hard to place back.

He started to move down, and he was kissing my neck and jaw line.

"Mattheo"

"Yes, princess," He mummed against my neck, causing shivers.

I closed my eyes and started to breathe heavier.

"I told you not to call me that," I said out of breath

He chuckled to himself.

But I stepped back against his touch.

"I need some time to think, please let me come to you when I'm ready."

With that, I left the broom cupboard and ran to my room.

"Y/n?" Pansy looked up from her desk

"Can we chat?"

She instantly closed her books and sat on my bed. She patted the space next to her.

"Whatever you want to talk about, I'll try and help,"

That's my girl.

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