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Episode 20

"nasabi ko kila mama, sorry seokkie."

joshua was about to enter chrystyan's hospital room when he had to stop midway after hearing a faint sobbed from someone as he overheard a girl over the line. and when he roamed his eyes around, he saw chrystyan sleeping on the bed with wires in some parts of his body including that dextrose, jeshua was sleeping on the couch with her blankets on while hugging that bunny stuff toy she got from the park last time when her and seokmin went out together... and on the side of this room, joshua saw seokmin who's right hand's covering his mouth.

seokmin was covering his mouth using his right hand prolly to prevent himself from crying out loud, afraid that he might wake jeshua up while his other hand was holding his phone while talking to someone over the line which joshua already knows who he was talking to... and that's none other than his big sister from korea. he have heard it before when he also overheard their conversation back when seokmin was cleaning the guest room. and though joshua didnt know what are they talking about but seeing seokmin's crying so hard once again gave him an idea kung tungkol saan yung pinaguusapan nila.

"i-im sorry, seokkie. im r-really really sorry." joshua's grip on the doorknob has tightened after hearing how seokmin sobbed so hard after his sister said her apologies. "i was left no choice.. i had to tell them. im sorry. im sorry."

seokmin sobbed once again. "w-what did she say? how about si papa, anong sabi nya?" the younger's voice was barely audible and he was catching his breathe so hard. "f-for sure i m-made them disappointed again."

when joshua couldn't bear seeing and hearing seokmin like that, he slowly closed the door making sure that seokmin wont noticed that he has been here for some minutes already and he saw him crying. when joshua already shuts the door leaving the sobbing seokmin inside with his two kids sleeping, he sat on one of the benches beside chrystyan's room as he held his head low and he shuts his eyes. but the moment he shut his eyes, the sobbing and crying seokmin was the one he saw... the seokmin who cried so hard earlier when he walked away and the same crying and sobbing seokmin when he came back.

kung paano nya iniwan si seokmin kanina, ganon din nya sya naabutan pagbalik nya.

it seemed like the younger didn't stop from crying ever since earlier because of what happened from both chrystyan and now.. regarding to his family there in korea. joshua's thought was right, that the thing both of him and his sister was talking about is because of their family or more so, their parents. and joshua remembers that seokmin mentioned before that he runaway from his family which means, his parents doesn't know what he was doing here for a living and they didnt knew who he was staying with.

that thought and seeing and hearing seokmin's sobbing was enough for joshua to felt guilty of himself. he felt guilty because he blamed the younger for not telling him what was happening towards to chrystyan when first of all, it wasn't seokmin's fault all along. because he realized that bakit nya sinisi sa iba when it was his responsibility in the first place? anak nya si chrystyan and yet, he was the one who didn't do his duty as his son's father, inasa nya lahat kay seokmin yung dapat sya yung gumagawa. yes, he was paying seokmin but that doesn't mean na maski pagiging magulang sa sarili nyang anak si seokmin nadin yung gagawa.

though he could see that the younger was willing to do it especially with jeshua, pero baliktarin mo man ang mundo.. chrystyan and jeshua wasn't seokmin's own child. seokmin was just meant to be there to look after the kids while he was away. no other than that. and now, what happened earlier between him and the younger just added up on seokmin's plate to burden and to over think about, and for sure, seokmin also blamed himself for not doing his responsibility when first of all dapat kay joshua yun.