Milani pov
The straw was pulled tonight.
Keith promised to stop drinking, but didn't and when he's drunk he's playful and aggressive and I'm not having it.
Keith came into the bathroom as I got out the shower.
"Babe it's the weekend, enjoy it with me."he said with a bottle of Tito's in his hand.
"Drinking is not enjoyment for me. You said you were done....I'm just trying to understand why you even decided to start drinking, like what's stressing you out so bad, your predicament not even worth starting an addiction. You not even down bad for real." I replied.
He leaned on the counter, next to me as I did my skincare.
"You know I said that, but then I thought, when you was drinking wine every night, coming from clubs drunk every other night after our divorce, I didn't ridicule you for it. I understood that's how you needed to cope. You're so judgmental and controlling, you hate for me to do the same." He chuckled and said.
"The difference is it didn't consume my life. My children didn't know I was drinking. I knew how to control it , limited it to the nights, my drinking was mild yours is severe. You're drinking something everytime I look at you. "
"Your shit just don't stink to you, huh." He laughed.
I rolled my eyes and finished my skincare.
"Lets drink too us being alike, twin." Keith said.
"No." I said walking away into the room.
"Come on Milani." He said grabbing my arm. I yanked it away and got in bed.
He climbed into bed and said,"Drink it, loosen up and get the stick out your ass."
"No!" I exclaimed.
"I'm your husband and I said drink it." He said before he forced it into my mouth to drink . He poured alot , causing me to choke a little and it to run down my chin. I gagged causing me to throw it up.
I kicked him and he got mad and poured the rest of the bottle on me.
"Fuck you!" I cried.
"Get out! Get out! Get out!" I exclaimed. I think it caused him to snap back into reality.
"I'm so sorry baby." He said.
"Get out!" I cried. I opened the door and said it again calmly hoping the screaming I already did didn't wake the kids.
He walked out.
"I don't want you in here at all, get out this house. I'm tired of this shit. You're not the man I married, get out."
He went out the house and just stood there.
I grabbed all his liquor and went back out there to pour them out in his face,"Don't bring this shit in here no more!"
I went back in the house and locked the door as I heard Keith outside saying,"Baby I'm sorry, please just let me back in. "
"Let me get my keys at least.! " he continued.
I didn't give him his keys because I didn't want him drunk driving but I did unlock his car door so he can sleep in there.
Heading back to my room, I ran into Marli.
"Mama what are you doing?! Why is daddy outside!?"
"Marli just go back to your room." I said calmly.
"No! Why is daddy outside. Let him back in!"
"Marli who are you talking to? Do as I say and go back into your room, I'm not gonna ask again." I demanded. She tried to get past me , but I kept blocking her. She called herself trying to push me out the way and I hit her arm and said,"You don't push me! I advise you to go back in your room or else everything is cut, you won't be having no prom, no phone, no nothing!"
Keiko and Kairo came peaking their heads out their rooms."Yall go back to bed."
Marli went back in her room and slammed her door and then Keiko and Kairo went back to bed.
Keith pov
I fucked up bad. Watching her come back out the house with the liquor I bought and pour them all out in the grass, just reminded me of when she threw Chris stuff out. I never thought I'd be in this predicament.
I sat on the step, just upset with myself and how I let myself get this way.
I should have never turned to drinking. I was just stuck in my mind stressed, I needed to relieve myself, and smoking is what I'll do here and there but it's just a buzz to me. It was a lot more accessible to drink.
I was in my mind upset with myself about letting go of my business. Not being able to pick up any gigs. Stressed about not making enough money to provide for my family and keep the lifestyle we have now. I don't know if it's a pride thing, but letting Milani be the breadwinner, sole provider is what I can't have. Not being a chauvinist, but it's because it's Milani. She lets having the upper hand take over. She becomes corrupt, she will little boy me nor respect me the same because she is providing. She has a way of stripping away a man's manliness. Then on top of all this here it is, I'm refreshing my marriage started a new chapter and this nigga just keep finding his way back in some sort of way. Like Marli becoming super close to his son is like a laugh in my face to me. Although, Chris himself isn't involved or coming around or prying himself back into Milani's life, to me it's feels like yeah nigga there'll always be a piece of me in her life. Also just the fact it is sure to come someday, he'll find his way back in, is what I worry about. But that's just me all in my head, part of me do believe he's moved on and happy with his new girl, but I can't hold nothing past no one. It's just been a lot. I wasn't expecting to get hooked to liquor, but it's just consequences of my actions.
I sat outside for maybe a good 40 minutes, until Marli opened the door.
I headed towards the guest room as she headed upstairs. She stopped and said, "Daddy?"
"Huh." I replied.
" Could you stop drinking please, it's hurting our family." She said.
"I'll stop Mars."
"Love you dad."
"Love you too." I replied before we went off to our rooms.
I can be honest, I cried to sleep. I'm failing my family. I'm becoming someone I'm not. I'd never hurt Milani the way I did tonight. Nor would I allow my children to see me be this way, this isn't the father they know. I have to fix myself.
