Milani pov
I sat on my side of my bed, anxiously biting on my nails as I watched tv. Waiting for Keith to get home from work. I found it hard to stop thinking about this news.
Keith finally made it home and the first thing he said when he got in our room," I should go meet him."
"No you shouldn't." I replied.
"Why not?" He replied .
" Because we don't know if that's your child or not. Until it's confirmed, no. You're doing too much."
"When I ran into you at Walmart and you said you had my baby, I went and seen her. I wasn't doing too much then ."
"The difference is she was your child. I knew for sure you were her father. She looks exactly like you." I replied.
"And he has my eyes. He could be mines."
"Do you want this boy to be your child because it shoulnuff seems like it."
"Well I just have a feeling he's mine and I would like to do right by him."
"Last thing that child needs is someone to come in and out his life." I responded.
Keith didn't respond.
Madison ended up group texting us, that she set the appointment for tomorrow.
Marli barged in,"Hey mom, hey dad, oou mom you look on edge. You alright?"
"Yea Mars." I replied.
"Ok cool, anyways, I want a custom dress made, I drew how I want it to look and I have a few reference pictures."
"Alright let me see, what are your siblings doing?" Milani took a breath and said.
"Keiks is in her room on her laptop, Kai he's outside with the neighborhood kids." Marli said.
"Oh ok." I replied as I watched Keith leave the room.
We went over the dresses and I reached out to my stylist to see what they could do.
"Mom are you and dad ok?" Marli asked.
"Yea, we're fine . Just some things that is coming up that we have to handle." I replied .
"Ok."she said before leaving the room. I went to check on Keiko. She was still on her laptop.
"Keiks." I said trying to get her attention since she had headphones in.
"Yes mama?" She asked.
"What you doing babe?" I said. She gave me her headphones. I put them in and listened, it was a recording of a violin put together with singing.
"This is you? You made this?" I asked.
"Yes." She replied.
A tear came down my eye,"Baby you sound amazing, this is beautiful. I didn't know you can sing baby. My baby is so talented." I grabbed and hugged her.
I was so proud, but yet so hurt I've never noticed. Keith and I get so caught up with Marli since she requires so much attention and always in our face, that Keiks and Kai fall in the background. That don't ask for much, they have their own worlds. Marli, she thinks she's our friend and always thought she was an adult because she was raised around adults.
You'd think you're doing enough, talking at dinner, helping with homework, saying I love you, hugs and kisses, but then realize you're missing the deeper things.
Kairo came back in once the street lights were on.
He's all about sports and video games. He does well in school, he could help Marli with her homework if he was taught once. He picks up on things very fast.
That night I made it my duty to really spend time with my kids.
Once Keith and I got in bed, I asked,"Did you know Keiks could sing?"
"No I didn't" he said.
"She be on her computer making music. She showed it to me. We have kids that are open to letting us come into their lives, but we don't even try. She let me listen to her music... if I didn't get up and check on her this wouldn't have been discovered. We really gotta stop and smell the roses. We're letting life get a hold of us." I said.
"Yea." Keith replied.
We went quiet. Until he broke the silence, "Are you coming with me to get tested?"
I was just getting over the thought of this child and he brought it back up, I huffed and said,"Yea."
"Why are you so against the idea of me having a child?" Keith asked.
"Because that's not what I wanted. Here it is we can't even focus on the kids we got...., and ... I just can't stomach the thought of someone else sharing a piece of you or another woman you have to answer to,I birthed all your kids. It was just supposed to me. This a whole another woman having apart of you that only I had. It's an envious, selfish, possessive feeling, I'm getting. How'd you feel I got with someone and had a child with them?"
"I'd feel a way." He replied.
"Yea." I said before turning my light off and turning to go to sleep.
