Keith Pov
Everyone spent time together mourning. Comes to find out he was killed by a drunk driver. It instantly made me feel bad for the drinking I've been doing. You'd think you're not causing much harm, but for yourself, until you harm someone else.
I hate to make it about me, but it felt like everyone was avoiding looking at me because I was drinking a lot and the irony of it all.
Milani was disassociating the whole time. She was no longer in the room with us mentally. This is my first time actually seeing her grieving a loss. I know I was beyond hurt to find out Micah was gone.
We headed back home and the house was gloomy. The kids were still crying all in Marli's room.
Milani and I bathed in the shower. She rested her head on my chest as I washed her back.
The rest of night was just silent. I woke in the middle of the night to Milani not in bed with me.
I went and checked on the kids they were altogether sleep.
I went down to the kitchen. Milani wasn't there. She was nowhere to be found in the house. I went to the garage and her car door was open, I went to her car, she was in there. Sitting in the car, with the car off. She was just crying. And low and behold she had a bottle of taylor port half full. And the car smelled like weed.
She had a reason tonight I give it a pass. May it not become a problem.
"I know, please just let it slide." She immediately said.
"It's alright Milani,I understand."
She stood up and I sat in her spot and she sat in my lap.
"I dropped him like a fly when I began living my life. I didn't spend much time with him. I knew I was wrong about it, I had plans to take him on a trip to make up for it, but never got to do it. He was like my first child." She said as she sniffed.
"Baby don't use your time of grieving to beat yourself up. He knows you love him. He understood the life you had. He had his own as well. I doubt he held it to you. Use your grieving time to think about the things you did do and not what you didn't do. " I replied as her phone continually blew up with people sending their condolences.
She lightly chuckled and continued," Anyone would say that my mom just had him for me, he was my child. My baby alive. Then when I got my own place I had him move right with me."
"Yal had a beautiful bond.
"Yea..... That was my baby. "
"I know baby." I said as she began crying again. I just held her tight.
This very much became a thing, every night I'd find her in her car. She slowed down on the smoking and just started doing 600mg edibles. That's when I knew she was fucked up fr, going through it.
The funeral she and the kids was tore up.
I had to overlook the text she received from Chris. He was sending his condolences to her. I'm glad he didn't show up, but I believe he knew not to because her family don't mess with him. But I know he played a part in Micah's life since he's been around for so long.
The mourning began to cause strife in the house.
Milani and I were chilling in the living room watching a movie, cuddled. We thought the kids were sleep.
Marli came down stairs to us. She was in the midst of asking a question until she noticed the bottle of wine and the edible wrapper. This time I wasn't actually on nothing, just Milani she was high and drunk.
"I can't believe yall. Yal are SOO EMBARRASSING. I HAVE ADDICTS AS PARENTS! JUST SELFISH, yal don't need kids I swear. I CAN'T DEAL WITH BEING IN THIS HOUSE!" She said before running back up to her room.
Milani was too faded to react, I hopped up to follow Marli.
I went to her room and she was packing clothes in a bag, while on the phone saying,"Yea pick me up." I'm guessing she was on the phone with Ryleigh.
"Mars I'm sober, I didn't drink nothing, your mom is just going through it right now."
"So what I learned from you both is, in times of trouble find an addiction to pass time, gotcha." She said brushing past me.
"Who would have ever thought, yal become this way." She said heading downstairs.
"Mama for you to give daddy a hard time when he was drinking,you now look silly." She said as I followed her.
"Don't talk to your mother like that Marli!" Said to Marli grabbing her arm.
She yanked away,"You think she really care what I'm saying?"she replied as we looked over at Milani, with her head buried in her head rocking side to side.
Keiko came out her room to see what was going on. She stood at the ledge looking down at us. "What's going on?" Keiko asked.
"Keiko, unfortunately your parents are addicts, especially your mom. Not only is she drunk, she is high off her rockers. She can't even defend herself right now, she too gone right now. I can't deal with this, it's been low energy in here way too long."
Marli walked out the house.
"Where do you think you're going it's 2am, get back in this house!" I said.
She looked at me and then continued to walk away towards the end of our carport.
"Alright don't come back , since you don't wanna listen." I said, instantly regretting what I said.
She didn't look back, Ryleigh's car came up to where she was and she got in it and left.
I never thought this day would ever come. My little girl being this way towards her mom and I, but she never thought we'd be this way towards her.
