the worst feeling is when you stop talking because you notice that nobody is listening.
i sat there, tears in my eyes. everyone was talking and laughing and i was feeling so quiet.
it felt like i was watching a movie.
my mind was full with thoughts but my heart felt empty. numb. i didn't want to be there anymore.
"are you alright, f?"
"no." but i couldn't respond. it felt like my brain couldn't connect with my mouth. my body felt like it was shaking inside. i didn't know what to do and all i wanted was to run away but i couldn't move my legs.
it felt like everyone was staring at me like i went insane. i heard a loud scream. i was later told that i screamed.
i felt myself zooming in and out of reality.
i could feel her hand on mine but was weird. it wasn't my hand, not my body. so far away.
i couldn't breath. there was air floating into my mouth but it didn't reach my lungs.
i felt like i was dying. everything went black.
"panic attack" i was told later. two words for such an traumatizing experience that i experience so often.
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my poems
Poetryjust a random collection of my depressing poems please don't steal them i worked really hard.
