Her Bad Reputation (Shawn Mendes)

Chapter 16

Kat POV

After reading the note, I started heading to Shawn's place after school.  I wonder what he wanted to talk to me about but I was hoping it was the same thing I wanted to talk about.  I made my way to his house, walked to the door, then I knocked.  A part of me was hoping that he wasn't home but another part of me was telling me to stay.  After five minutes of waiting Shawn answered the door.

"I didn't think you were coming," he said as he let me in.

"Well here I am." I said, "What did you want to talk about?"

"I wanted to talk about us and to apologize for what happened last week."

"You don't have to apologize.  I forgive you anyway.  Its my fault, I shouldn't have reacted that way."

"Then why did you?  I didn't mean to hurt or offend you in any way," he said with hurt in his voice.

"I know you didn't.  It's just that when you said my name like that I panicked and pushed you away instead of talking to you about it," I said.  We were sitting in his room and I took a seat on his bed while he took a spot next to me.

"I'm sorry about that.  You know I thought I hurt you and I wasn't able to think clearly because of it," he said.

"I wasn't able to process all of it and I thought that pushing you away was the best option.  Guess I was wrong," I said with a laugh.  Shawn looked at me and gave me a small smile.  It took him a minute to start talking again.

"You know, this whole time I was trying to find a way to tell you how I feel without knowing how you felt about me.  That night when I moaned out your name, that was me expressing my feelings.  I didn't know that you weren't used to guys saying your name," he said.

"You were right," I blurted out.

"What do you mean?"

" I was used to the pet names and all that shit.  Guys using me for sex and just having hook ups but I feel like I want to try having an actual relationship with someone who cares about me maybe even loves me for who I am."

"Maybe you haven't met the right guy yet.  Maybe the right guy has been right in front of you the whole time," he said leaning closer to me and I slowly backed away.  I got up from the bed and started walking out the door until Shawn grabbed my wrist and pulled me back.

"I don't know what to do anymore." I said with my voice breaking, "I can't express the way that I feel about you. All those things you did for me, why did you do them?"

"I did them because I didn't like seeing you get hurt and because I care about you," he said.  Shawn had me pinned against the wall, his arms were on both sides of my body and he leaned in closely to the point where I can feel his breath on my skin.  I looked down at my feet until he lifted my chin to look up at him.

"We crossed the line too many times already. I think we should stop," I said as I felt his lips brush against mine.

"It was never drawn," he said and he pressed his lips against mine.  I was shocked at first but then I started kissing him back.  His hands were wrapped around my waist and his grip tightened as he deepened the kiss.  I placed my arms around his neck and my fingers started running through his hair.  

"Jump," he said as he pulled away and his lips found his way back to mine. I jumped into his arms and wrapped my legs around his waist.  Without breaking the kiss, he pulled us away from the wall and onto the bed.  I felt my body hit the mattress as he laid me down gently and kissed me again.  Before we went any further, he stopped.

"What's wrong?," I asked him.

"Are you ok with this?," he asked me.

"Of course I am. Why do you ask?"

"Because the last time we did this, you hated me," he said.

"I didn't hate you. I was just scared that's all," I told him.

"Do you want me?," he asked.

"I want you," I said as I cupped his cheek and pulled him down to kiss me again.  I kissed him again but this time my kisses turned hungrier and I flipped us over so that I was on top of him.  Shawn sat up while he still had his lips on mine and his arms were still planted firmly on my waist.  He pulled away from my lips and attached his mouth to my neck leaving soft kisses on my skin.  His lips found my sweet spot and I let out a small moan.

"Shawn," I moaned when his kisses started going lower.  My hands started roaming his body until they found his shirt which I started pulling telling him to take it off.  He pulled his shirt off revealing his abs and tossed it on the floor. Shawn pulled my shirt off as well revealing my bra.  He laid down on the bed again while I was still on top of him never pulling away from my lips.  Shawn flipped us over so that he was on top of me and intertwined our fingers together while he was kissing me. 

~Ten minutes later~

Shawn POV

I was lying in bed with Kat right next to me out of breath from the events that happened earlier.  The way we were positioned on the bed brought a smile on my face.  Her head was on my chest and my arms were wrapped around her waist drawing lazy circles on her hip while her fingers were on my chest tapping along to my heart beat.

"That was better than the first time we did it,"  I said looking into her green eyes which never stopped to amaze me every time I looked into them.

"You weren't as bad as you were the first time," she said.

"Are you trying to hurt my ego kitty Kat ?," I said laughing.

"No. I was just saying you improved from the first time. Did you just call me 'kitty Kat'?"

"Yeah I did. Why?"

"I like it."

"It suits you." I told her. After I said that, her lips found mine kissing me softly and I kissed her back.  I never listened to the rumors about her or what she said about herself.  Se was so much more than her reputation and I never knew that.  I fell in love with the real Kat and not just based on what people say.