New beginnings

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Lilys pov

I woke up the next morning, I had fallen asleep pretty early last night and had no nightmares probably because I was so exhausted, Scarlett told me a few days ago she was starting to film avengers endgame this week but she also told the school I wasn't going to come into school so I probably would be left alone like usual but I know Scarlett and dad had a conversation about me last night because I could hear it but I didn't let them know I was listening in for the first few minutes but as soon as dad mentioned mom I left but I heard dad say he felt as if it was his fault that mom went and had an affair but I didn't blame him at all, the only person I blamed was mom

*flashback to last night*

3rd person pov

The family had just got back from the restaurant and it was awkward, Colin had tried to have conversations with Lily but she didn't give him much In response

Lily went straight upstairs and said she wanted to get an early night which the adults didn't tell her otherwise especially Scarlett because she knows that Lily can't sleep sometimes because of her nightmares so it was better for her to try and sleep, Scarlett had also put Rose to bed reading her a story whilst Colin said he would get some snacks ready so him and Scarlett could have a movie night

But Scarlett didn't want to watch the movie and instead she told Colin that they needed to have a chat

"Colin we need to talk" Scarlett said turning around to face Colin as she couldn't concentrate on the movie and she was just preoccupied with all that has gone on

"Is everything okay Scar?" Colin asked with worry written all over his face probably thinking that Scarlett was trying to break up with him

"We need to talk about you and your behaviour towards Lily- Scarlett started and before Colin could open his mouth she continued - I know you don't want to hurt her but she needs you more than ever, she was so scared in that hospital and I could see that all she wanted was her father but you weren't there, she is 13 years old and when she was crying she apologised for being a baby Colin I know you don't mean it but your actions really hurt Lily you tell her that she is 13 and she isn't a baby and doesn't need hugs or comfort but all she wants to do is be close with you, I saw how she was looking at you when you were with Rose the other night and I saw how hurt she was that you could give that love to Rose and not her" Scarlett says taking her hands into Colin's nodding slightly to let Colin know she was done speaking

"I know Scar but I thought it was better this way, I thought she didn't want me to hug her when her mother left because I felt like I was taking her mothers hugs away from her, I get so happy when she sits in my lap and gives me a cuddle but she only does it when she is having a panic attack and I feel guilty for wanting more hugs knowing that she only wants to come to me when she is in pain and I don't want my baby girl to be in pain Scar I just don't know what to do" Colin said with tears streaming down his face, Scarlett leaned in and used her thumbs to wipe his tears before kissing his lips

"I get that Colin but there's nothing more that a Lily wants than to be closer to you, she told me that she thinks work is more important than her and you proved her point when you didn't show up to the hospital and all the times when you left her In the hospital when she just wanted you to sit with her and make her feel better, I think you need to have a proper conversation about his with Lily but I just want to know why did you leave when she was in hospital?" Scarlett said trying to be comforting but also not sugarcoating the truth because it needs to be said

"I want to be better for her Scar I really do but it makes me feel like I am a failure that I couldn't give her a proper family that she deserves and it is all my fault, I'm the reason why Dana (Lilys mom) left and it would break her heart if she knew that, She left because she said she didn't love me anymore and maybe if I tried a little bit more I would have stopped Dana from leaving and Lily would still have her mom and as for the hospital she doesn't know this but I stayed with her every night she was there when she was sleeping but I would leave in the morning before she would wake up because I didn't want her to think I am trying to replace what her mother would have done and I know it's wrong but all I want is what's best for Lily" Colin said tears still streaming down his face and then it hits Scarlett that Lily thought that Colin hates her but all he was trying to do is protect Lily even though he did it the wrong way