I am miserable. Not even in a fun cute way either. I'm bitchy and depressed.
If I have to hear about:
- Taylor Swift or any other gay pop artist
- Greek Life
- My friend's relationship
One more time I think I am going to explode. The Taylor Swift one is almost the worst. I can't even pretend to care anymore. I was trying, because it's my friends interest, but it's so annoying. They refuse any other opinion. They retort back with a mocking voice that always says the same thing. "Oh you don't like Taylor Swift? You're so cool and not like other girls!" Holy fuck. I'm so sick and tired of hearing about this album and I'm sick of hearing the songs in the car. I'm tired of Chappel Roan. I'm tired of Renee Rap. I'm tired of Lizzy McAlpine. CAN'T YOU GUYS LISTEN TO ANYTHING COOLER? OK YOU'RE GAY CAN YOU LISTEN TO LIKE YOUNG MA OR SOMETHING JESUS CHRIST. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF THESE FEMME WHITE LESBIAN SINGERS. PLEASE FREE ME.
I'm not even going to touch on greek life because if I even think about it it's going to make me want to kill myself.
I am in such deep shit these last 2 weeks. I have so much due. Even typing this out is having dread weigh down my body. I have so much to do. I don't even know where to start. I want to kill myself and the people directly around me actually don't give a fuck. I'm sick of it. I need it to be summer so bad.
I hate my haircut it looks so bad and yeah in like 2 weeks it'll be fine again but it's just annoying that its kind of fucked up rn.
I haven't even written one of these in forever because I've been so busy crying and jerking off. Sorry that this one is so whiny. Actually aren't they all?
Music has stopped sounding good to me. How do I have like a billion songs saved but I keep hearing the same things. All I do now is watch Smosh and browse letterboxd for movies I'll probably never get around to. I feel like I'm regressing. I'm experiencing actual brainrot.
Ok to sum it up:
- I want to violently kill myself.
- My haircut is bad.
- I can not hold a conversation with my roommates because if I hear the same thing again I'll shoot myself
- I am going to fail college
Ok well that's all
