Intentions: Sam x Reader x Dean x Castiel

Chapter 21

Day 30:

Y/n Pov

It's been a month since Sam lost his soul. Three weeks since we've tried Rowena's spell, and right now it feels like we're all just spinning our wheels looking for the item Rowena needs for her spell to work. Wherever it is.

Sam is.. okay, I guess. He's been going on more solo hunts, which worries me constantly. I mean, what if he gets hurt? Or God forbid, dies?

Dean and Cas have been taking shifts with me here at the bunker while the other goes with Rowena to look for what she needs. And as much as I love them both, I really do, I just want Sam.

I miss everything we had before shit went to hell. I miss cuddling while we watch stupid comedy movies. I miss reading with him. I miss the sex.

God, I'm no better than a man.

But it's true. Dean and Cas.. I mean, there's no words for how good it is. But I miss Sam. His words stung like a knife when he said them. I decided not to tell Dean about it, I don't want them to fight. Cas talked to Sam anyways, and since then it's been better. He's still snarky sometimes, but it's more playful rather than to hurt my feelings or get under my skin.

Today however, Dean and Cas actually left me alone with him in the bunker. I guess Rowena needed them both. I'm sitting on the couch and reading a book while Sam is in his room. I look down at my phone and see it's almost dinner time, Dean and Cas should have been back by now.

I pull out my phone and send Cas a text.

Me: Everything okay?

His reply is almost instant.

Cassie: Almost finished my darling. Are you okay? Is Sam bothering you?

I chuckle at his worrying, he was the least happy to leave me here alone with him.

Me: All good, I'm riding his dick right now.

I laugh at my own text.

Cassie: Oh? Then why are you texting me? Don't lie to me darling, you know the punishment for that.

I giggle softly and respond.

Me: Not lying, just teasing lol. Doesn't matter, it's not like he's showing any interest. Maybe he's over me.

I frown, longing and doubt creeping into my mind.

Cassie: He's not over you y/n. Have you made any indication that you want to have sex with him? Maybe he's waiting for you to show interest. After all, he seemed pretty interested when I was fucking you against my wall.

Me: No, I guess I haven't. It's just so weird right now. I feel like we broke up. Is that weird?

Cassie: I don't think so. But I also would hate to see you give up before the miracle happens.

Me: Does that mean you guys found what you were looking for?

Cassie: I believe so. I'll explain more when we get back home. Just promise me that you'll stick close to us, okay darling?

Me: Always.

Cassie: And forever. We'll be back in about an hour, tell Sam to come out to meet us in the garage and then go to your room. We'll get you when it's time. I love you.

Me: Okay? I love you too.

Cassie: That's my good girl.

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I sigh and get up from the couch, putting my book on the coffee table. I walk up to Sam's door, my fingers curled as I prepare to knock. I debate for a second on whether or not I should just text him instead.