Walker Scobell imagines<3

I should hate you.

Now playing, I should hate you by Gracie Abrams.
(angst)

"Cuz we didn't happen the way we were supposed to."

"Hey, Walker!!" I said, running up to him with a smile on my face. He just gave me a side look before looking back to his phone. He's been...distant lately. I have no idea why.

"hey, are you good...?" I asked quietly, looking at him with a concerned look on my face.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Can you just-leave me alone?" He said in this cold tone I didn't even recognize. I looked shocked for a moment before covering it up.

"Oh-yeah, sorry. Bye, love you." I said, starting to walk away.
"yeah, bye." He muttered.

I walked home alone that day, since Walker was "busy". I kicked a rock across the street, pretty upset. Did I do something wrong? I couldn't tell.

TIMESKIP

I lay on my bed on my stomach, cross legged as my legs were in the air. I huffed. I was bored as hell, since, again. You guessed it, Walker was busy. And it wasn't like I didn't have friends, it was just I loved spending time with Walker. Though I'm starting to think he doesn't really reciprocate that.

I suddenly got a notification from my phone. It was from Instagram, seemingly saying Walker had posted.

I clicked on it, my heart dropping to my feet.

Walker, with my best friend..?

He told me he was busy, but he was busy, with her.
that son of a bitch.

He probably didn't know I had seen it, he probably meant to post it privately, but that didn't make it any better.

I suddenly thought of the worst thought.
Was he cheating on me??
No, he wouldn't do that. Right?

But I had to find out.

I grabbed my phone, a sweatshirt, and walked outside, hopping on my bike. I rode down the street, to Walker's house. I knocked on the door, and he answered. His hair a bit messy. He looked a little disappointed when he saw me, but I didn't say anything about it.

"Hi." I said, a little breathless from biking here.
"hey." he said, in a bit of a questioning tone. "What are you doing here?"

He asked, and I sighed.
"Can we talk?" I asked quietly, not meeting his eyes.
"yeah, sure. Come in." He responded, opening the door. He led me to his room, shutting the door behind us and leaning against the wall.

"So?" He said, urging me to get on with my point.
"Well, I just feel like-like we're getting distant. I mean, you barely pay attention to me anymore. I can't remember the last time it was you reaching out to me.

He sighed, running a hand through his hair.

"Look, YN. This is something I've wanted to say for a while but..." He paused, and met my eyes. I felt myself grow nervous with every look.

"I want to break up." He said coldly. He didn't sound anything sad. But...relieved? relieved he got the words out..?

It felt as if all the air had been taken out of my lungs, and for a second I thought I couldn't breathe.

"I-what? why?" I said, gulping a bit.
"Because, I've thought about this for a while, and well...I-I don't love you anymore. I've been seeing someone else.."

For a moment, he looked guilty, before returning to his cold expression.
"Who." I said, it coming out a bit forced.

There was a long pause, before he said something.
"your best friend..." 
I felt my heart break even more. Tears threatening to spill but I didn't let them out. Not yet.

"Oh.." I said quietly. 
"you were cheating on me?" I asked.
"yeah..." He said, and there was a long awkward silence, before he took a deep breath.

"you should go." He stated firmly, and I nodded.
"yeah..." I murmured, walking out of his room and shutting the door. I was met with Leena, then.

"YN, what's wrong?" She asked with a concerning look on her face. Leena was like a big sister to me, but I couldn't tell her.

"Oh! Nothing, I'm good!!" I faked a smile, which was probably convincing to her because she nodded and smiled.

"Well, you know you can always talk to me, right?" She asked, and I nodded again.
"Yeah! I'll see you later tho!"
"Bye YN!"
"Bye Leena!" I said, surprised how I mustered such a front. I ran outside and got on my bike, biking away fast. My chest burned, from how fast I was going and how I was holding in my tears. I let myself bike until I got home, throwing it on the ground and running inside, straight to my room.

Where I cried until I couldn't anymore.

How could he do this? Nine months, just for him to be in love with someone else.
That someone, being my best friend. I was going to have to deal with them being together. In front of me. Right now, I hated Walker.

But I hated her more than anything.

How could she do this to me? We've been friends our whole lives, and just for her to throw it away for a boy?

pathetic.

I sat up, my eyes puffy. I saw the pictures of me and Walker, thinking about how the girl next to him was once me, but now it was gonna be her.

suddenly, my phone dinged. 
It was a message from my best friend.

Partner in crime 😝

Partner in crime 😝
YN, please let me explain.

my other half 🤩
No, Samantha. You don't get to.
Really? Seeing my boyfriend?
fuck you.

Partner in crime 😝
No, YN.
Please! Just listen!!

not delivered
you can no longer send messages, 
calls, or facetimes to this number


I blocked her, and Walker too. I turned my phone on do not disturb, and lay in bed. I turned on my playlist, and I should hate you, by Grace Abrams started playing.

Great, just what I needed.

I started crying again, feeling pathetic.
No wonder he chose her. She was perfect. Boys at school never looked at me, they looked at her. but he did. And she had to steal it.

Maybe we we're meant to be together in another universe.

Just not this one.

Goodbye, Walker.

For good.

A\N
First angst!!
Part 2?