Smoke and secrets | 18 +

XVI

-Arabella's POV-

After I heard what Tori had to say, my heart dropped.

I actually had feelings for her. And to her it was just sex.

I so desperately wanted her to walk with me and tell me she was lying. Tell me it wasn't what it seemed. She didn't think I was just sex and she did feel something, anything at all.

I cried so much. I didn't want to do anything after that so I had a hot shower and cried the entire. When I eventually got out, I went straight to sleep.

Now I haven't spoken to her in a week.

She keeps trying to approach me but I turn away every time. I don't think I'm ready to hear what she has to say yet.

On a brighter note. Everyone is coming in today.

After a shitty week with Tori, I'm excited to have some time with everyone from home.

Anna said they were flying in at about three this afternoon.

Danica and I offered to meet them at the airport.

Once I told Danica about everyone back home, she seemed more than happy to spend a week with us.

So far we've been out in the garden, at the pavilion, just talking for a long while now as Kylo eats the flowers and runs around chasing whatever small animal is around.

"So...I haven't seen you with Tori for a while now." Danica trailed off. I rolled my eyes.

"Woah, eye roll. What happened?" She asked dramatically.

"Nothing. I just don't think I'm ready to see her again." I said softly.

"After your date you were smiling ear to ear, even the next morning. And the last few days after that, you have been smiling after even the small interactions between you and her." She said softly.

"She compared me to April. From room 17." I scoffed. "Fucking April." I added.

"How? How are you like April?" Danica asked.

"I don't know, she said I was just sex. We had sex twice! Twice Dani. It was good I'll give her that but I just thought..." I let out a sigh. "I thought she might have some sort of feelings for me. I thought our date meant something to her, her sleeping in my bed meant something! I was just sex." I scoffed.

"Oh Belle. I'm so sorry." Danica moved to sit next to me and gave me a hug.

"I felt something for her. I really did. And after she said that I wanted her to just tell me I heard wrong or not the whole conversation. She was lying, anything. But nothing. I like her too. Even now, that's the most fucked part." I suddenly felt a tear run down my cheek.

"I know Belle. I'm sorry. You're someone different, so different from April." Danica hugged me as I cried for a minute in her arms.

It seemed to be the only thing I've been lately.

"Bambina why are you crying?" I heard a soft raspy voice behind me. The same voice I've been trying to avoid for the last week.