Gemini

6 star

^might change the pink to a peach😭it's kind of clashing!

He thinks I'm playing.

I think to myself as I walk around my hospital room.

I'm not.

Ahmad and him would totally be cute as fuck. I stamp.

I know what everyone's thinking but me and Ahmad never loved each other romantically but we loved each other enough that we always want to take care of each other and it may be kind of wrong to assume in his next relationship he would want to be with a man but hey fuck it.

Ahmad's basically the only family I have out in America the rest of my family is still in the Dominican Republic and they have some idea about my condition but they don't know everything, I don't need my mother worried and trying to get to me.

I'm just trying to take care of him.

I know I'm not going to survive but my baby will and Ahmad wants to give her up for adoption.

He fills he's unfit and just won't be a good father but I believe in him he just doesn't believe in himself. I try and try to talk him out of it I even took the low route and tried to guilt trip him but he won't budge it's really making me sad.

He can't give her up. It's his purpose.

Guys I know I sound crazy but it's the truth.

I know I'm even crazier for accepting the fact that I'm going to die and not be able to even take care of my daughter but it's my purpose. I'm not scared to die, I'm scared of being scared to die. Hopefully Pollux and Ahmad hit it off, someone needs to convince him to keep the baby!

I sigh.

I just hope that Ahmad changes his mind.

I'm so mad at him though how could he even think to give her up for adoption. He's such an asshole.

I know he's blocked by trauma but really Ahmad you can't see past it for YOUR daughter.

He's really scared because this is not Ahmad he may seem rough around the edges but he's the sweetest...was the sweetest.

I don't know I'm stressed.

I just hope he gains a new perspective.

For our baby.

Angel's Rant!