Problematic // Vikklan Au

Chapter 12

-Edited-

The picture attached is indeed my own drawing. It was a fast sketch when I felt down, so I hope it fits to this chapter a bit? Anyways, please do not use it without my consent and without crediting me. :)

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Lachlan's POV

I climbed out of my car and led the way up to my front door, my heart racing and pounding against my ribcage out of anxiety and anticipation. What would Vikk do when I do this?

I tore into my lip as I allowed Vikk to walk in first, following behind him and closing the door quietly. I sucked in a sharp breath, starting to shake and fear the worst. What if he was disgusted of me and would throw me out like trash? I could lose everything with him.

I rubbed the fabric of my long sleeve hoodie between the pad of my fingers, pondering if this was really a good thing to do. I swallowed thickly as I looked at Vikk who stared at me expectantly and with worry in his orbs.

I shakily pulled my hoodie over and off my head, being left in a blank black V-neck that was baggy and hung around my frame loosely.

His eyes snatched down to my arms, and his entire face crumbled in shock, and soon his eyes were blank. His brown orbs jumped to every single red line and gash before I tugged my shirt off and revealed my tattered hips and sides.

The cuts on my arms ran from my wrist to the bend of my elbow, and every area seemed irritated and sore. It was very sore.

My arms were scarred and covered in white lines, but there were new slits across the skin every other scar. My hips had more new signs than any old scars, and most of the time those would open back open and cause me excruciating pain since my pants would rub against them.

He stared silently, taking in all of me, but I felt like he didn't like me. He wouldn't like me now that he sees who I really am. I started to tear up, feeling my hands fidget with nerves. Soon, the tears did start to fall as he looked back up at me and stared blankly into my flooded blue orbs.

"Lachlan, I'm ashamed."

My heart felt like it had been shattered by a rock, and the heart strings inside snapped, making me feel as if my heart had fallen to the floor and left to rot away in small crumbled pieces. My hands trembled severely as I stumbled backwards, slinging my arms and hands up to wrap around my middle self-consciously.

His words repeated like a mantra, and soon I had bit through the skin of my cheek and felt the metallic taste of blood rush through my mouth from the new open gash.

My throat felt clogged and clamped shut, and soon my stomach was twisting unpleasantly. I shoved past Vikk to the stairs and towards my room, closing the structure and locking it.

The numbness rising through my chest was beginning to make me crumble, and soon I gave in to its freezing embrace as I slid down the door and hugged my legs to my chest while silently crying.

I heard knocking on the door I leaned back against almost immediately, but I could only clench my jaw and fight the sobs to stay silent. Tears blinded my vision, refusing to give me a breath, and my heart was beginning to blow away like dust.

I could feel the pain bubbling through my chest and how my heart felt painfully numb as my stomach twisted in knits. I muffled the gasps I made for air with my hand, trying to sound like I wasn't in here even if I knew Vikk knew exactly where I was.

I could hear something rub down the door before a low bump was heard on the ground. I knew then that Vikk was mirroring my position, but I wanted nothing to do with him at the moment.

I choked on a sob before just crying loudly and not caring if I were heard.

"Lachlan?" I heard a muffled whisper, "I'm sorry." I shook my head at his words, even if he couldn't see it.

Could I even believe him anymore?

I stood up, shaking heavily on my limbs as I opened the door, meaning to tell the boy to leave, but I stayed silent as I watched Vikk fall backwards and then seemed incredibly stunned.

I bent down to my knees, hovering over Vikk as I tried to see if it was even worth trying anymore. "Look, I didn't mean to say what I did. I was shocked, and it just slipped out," Vikk tried to defend himself, but I looked away with my face crumbling.

Could I even trust him anymore?

"As much as you've hurt me, I just can't seem to hate you," I mumbled, looking down at him with my face fallen. "I think it's because I want you," I whispered, leaning down despite the ping in my chest and pressed my lips to his.

I felt him tense, and immediately I felt like I just lost everything right there, but Vikk began to kiss back with our lips molding together almost as if they were made to do just that.

"I want you too. I guess that's why I chose to bully you," he sheepishly admitted after pulling away,  a red tint covering his dark cheeks. I smiled lightly as I stood up and helped him, looking at him nervously when we stood face to face.

Well, really it was his face to my chest, but it was still amazing.

"You don't know how relieved I am to hear that," I whispered as I hugged him into me and held him as if he were my life, even if we had only admitted a small piece of liking one another.

Mitch's POV

I walked alongside Preston and Rob as we left the hospital. Preston was sore of course, but he would have a fast recovery according to the doctors.

I helped Preston climb out of the wheelchair they permitted patients who have been hospitalized to leave in and into Rob's car. I waved them a goodbye and left to my own, beginning to drive my way home.

All the while I thought of Lachlan and how he had been lately, but my thoughts were interrupted as I parked my car and climbed out with the bitter cold burning at my exposed skin. I shivered and breathed out a cloud of white vapor before running to my house with my arms wrapped around myself before closing the door and kicking my shoes off the instant I was inside.

I rushed to my couch and curled into myself in attempts to preserve heat as I looked out of the window and could see flurries sprinkling down from the dark clouds above.

I smiled out of excitement and watched the snowflakes fall and stick to the outside world, coating everything in white sheets of coldness and fun before giggling lightly and snuggling up to the armrest of my couch and just watching the snow fall and fall.