🥀 Roses and Novels - Sebastian Sallow - Ominis Gaunt (Hogwarts Legacy Fanfic)

🥀 - Chapter 53 -🌹

(Ominis Perspective)
I waited and waited for Sebastian to arrive at the library.. He wanted to talk, so i went in straight after i finished my conversation with Helena. I sat at my desk as i tapped my fingers on the ebony wood. I looked at my watch on my wrist, i was already waiting 20 minutes for his lazy ass to come and meet me. He knew that i hated waiting for him, so he probably did it to annoy me.

10 minutes later i looked at my watch again. Where was he.. And why did it take so long.
I heard footsteps from the other side of the door and he burst right in with his hands in his pockets. He sat across from me with his right feet leaning on his knee and his arms crossed.
He sighed deeply and looked at me with no expression on his face.

I wanted to scowl at him for keeping me waiting for so long, but he interrupted me.
''I told Helena I loved her...'' like it was the most casual thing to say; he just dropped it like that.
Like he told me, he had a lovely breakfast or had a good night's sleep. And I just stared at him; nothing in my mind could think of an answer to respond. He just sat there across from me with no expression, no smile, and no emotion as he looked at me.. Waiting for me to respond.

But my throat couldn't get the words out i wanted to say out loud, i could only say it in my head.
My body froze in my seat, and my fingers stopped moving over the wooden desk. I felt my face drain of blood and boil up into my veins as i grabbed the wooden edge hard to not break my own knuckles. I slammed my fist on the chair and stood up, i felt rage and aggression boil up.
Sebastian's expression changed within a second of noticing it, and he looked worried at me.
''Ominis, don't..'' he begged me to not burst out into a fight as he stood up from the chair.
I slammed the chair away with my wand and quickly approached him, i cornerd him with bookshelves. I pushed my wand to his troath, and he held his hands in the air to calm me down.
''Ominis.. I'm so sorry.. It just slipped, i wasn't thinking.. it was a moment of happiness i hadn't had in a long time. It just felt so good to say it to her.. After all this time''

I pushed the wand harder against his throat. ''How did she respond to you? And don't LIE to me, Sallow! Because i will know when you are!'' I felt Sebastian's fear for me; his body shivered. I saw his pale face, and that happiness dissipated in his eyes again. ''She... She didn't believe it. She asked me to tell it to her again and again a couple of times. When she turned to look me in the eye and asked me again, I said it once more, and she said nothing about it.''

I withdrew my wand and sighed as I stepped back and straightened my jacket. ''Merlin Sebastian, what were you thinking for fuck sakes? First, you had to talk to her before you could say something like that. You know what she has been through. And second, what the hell, man? I'm your brother; are you trying to end my relationship with her? Why can't you be happy for me?''

Sebastian grabbed my shoulders with a firm grip as he shook my body forth and back ''i am HAPPY for you! Ofcourse i am! But you just don't get it Gaunt.. Picture yourself in my position.. I was with her.. I lost her.. I was with her again.. I lost her again.. And she fucking kissed me before Azkaban; she told me she loved me, and i couldn't forget her.. And i hadn't seen or heard anything after that, so YEAH don't blame me for still having hopes and dreams of being with her again. We never really ended it, if you ask me.. Just give me a break man, if you care for me let me figure this shit out.''

I grabbed his hands and pushed them away from me, and i walked to the desk to sit down again.
''Sebastian, you did end it before you left! You and that stupid Hemingway quote were enough... But you were wasted of that flask you were drinking all day, so you probably forgot it.
But i quote you: 'Helena, If two people love each other there can be no happy ending to it. So you have to forget about me'. So Yes! You did end it; she forgot about you man.. It's not like i stole her from you.. You ended it with her...''