A Mistake Worth Making

3. Let Me Explain

Damian POV

I was dumbfounded. This was not how it was supposed to go. The second The words fell from her lips my heart sunk and my stomach lurched.

I had tried so hard to stop her. While Kayla continues to look at me expectantly I had no idea what to do.

"I'm sorry, I was just excited and I wanted to ask you before I burst" she says placing her hands on my chest

"Can......can we sit down? We need to talk" I say guiding her towards the dining chair she had been sat in and taking a seat beside her "Kayla...........look there is no easy way for me to do this but my answer is no........I can't marry you.........for two reasons, first I don't feel the same way and second I'm in love with someone else and I always have been. What you want with me..........thats what I want with Erin..........I'm sorry I never wanted to hurt you"

"Erin? Your ex?" She says and I nod "you said that was over, that she gave up?.......wait..........where were you when I got home?"

"I was with Erin.............." before I can finish her hand connects with my face in a slap I'm sure I deserve

"You cheated on me! I was thinking about us, our future, planning the proposal and you were sleeping with your ex" she snaps

"I haven't cheated.......I was with her all night......we slept together but not sexually" I say "I went to her last night and we spent all night talking, she asked me to stay and we carried on talking.......that's all we did"

"Doesn't change the fact that you were in some one else's arms" she says "I thought you loved me, I thought we were happy"

"I do.......just not the way I love her" I sigh "I tried so hard to be happy but in my heart I knew this wasn't where I was meant to be...........Erin is what my heart wants"

"Why now? She was the one who gave up. The one who didn't want to try. Why does she want you back now? What makes you think she won't hurt you again" she asks

"Because we have talked everything through. We both know what we want and we want to make it work" I say "I just need a couple of days to pack my things and then I will be out of here"

"No.....no......I'm not letting you go that easily Damian" she says grabbing my arm "I love you..........you are my forever I'm not just going to give up like she did. Please don't give up on us just yet, give it some time"

"Kayla........I'm sorry but............."

"Damian I'm pregnant"

Erin POV

As soon as Damian left I had started to clear out the wardrobe and drawers that had previously been his.

Maybe I was being over keen in allowing myself to be excited about this but I just couldn't hide how happy I was that he was back in my life.

I knew it would take some time to get used to and to find a way to make it work around our schedules but his confidence in us gave me confidence.

Slowly but surely I created space for him not just in my home but in my heart. The more I got done the more excited I was and the more I couldn't wait to see where this road took us this time.

Once the bedroom was done I moved on to the bathroom. It seemed like I had spent the last four months a had made an unconscious effort to eradicate any sign of him because to anyone on the outside it would look like he had never lived here.

The final stop on my cleaning spree was the home gym. The door had been locked since he left, I never used it but now I needed to make sure it was use able for him.

Flipping on the light I'm greeted with a room full of equipment that is covered in a light layer of dust. This was going to take some cleaning and organising but I had time, plenty of time before he came back home.

I had only just started dusting when my phone buzzed in my pocket. When I see his name I smile at the screen before answering.

"Hey baby" I smile

"Hey baby, can we talk?" He asks

"Sure I've just been sorting the house out, I've made space for you in the bedroom and the bathroom and I'm just starting to sort out the gym. It will be like you never left"

"That's great baby" he sighs "listen I'm not going to be able to come back as soon as I thought. It may take a little more time........."

"That's fine there's not rush and it gives me more time to get the house ready" I smile "I have so many ideas and I just can't wait for us to start again I..........."

"Erin, baby I need you to listen..........."

"It's going to work this time I can feel that now. You and me it's meant to be........"

"Erin......Kayla is pregnant........"

"I......she........what?" I gasp

"She pregnant" he sighs "I can't just leave........we need to figure things out........make a plan but I promise its you and me that's not going to change"

"D.......I can't break up a family" I say swallowing the lump in my throat "maybe be we should leave this now before it gets worse"

"No.........you are what I want that hasn't changed" he says "I'm still coming home I just need more time, please don't give up this time"

"Be with your family D" I say ending the call before he can speak and allowing myself to fall to my knees and break.