A Mistake Worth Making

5. Frustrated

Damian POV

As I pack my stuff into a box I let out a frustrated sigh. This was taking far longer than I had wanted it to. I had been trying to pack up my stuff for the last two months but every time I went back to work I would come back and find that Kayla had unpacked it all.

And so I'd resorted to doing my packing while she slept and then loading what I'd packed into my car and taking it to Erin who then unpacked it at home.

So as not to cause a row and or cause Kayla any stress I had been doing slowly a couple of boxes a night. Tonight I was packing up what bits remained and then was it, tonight I'd take some to Erin and then tomorrow night I'd be out of here.

Picking up the boxes I head through the house. As I pass Kaylas room I check she's still sleeping and get a glance of her small bump, there was no denying that I was getting more and more excited about meeting that baby.

Being a father was something I always wanted, I wanted it far more than any achievement in my career. Erin knew that and I knew she was finding this so hard. I knew she was constantly beating herself up that she wasn't the one giving this to me and no matter how I tried to reassure her she was convinced she had failed me in some way.

Loading the boxes into the car I lock the front door before climbing into the drivers seat and starting the car one more day and I'd be where I wanted to be.

More than anything I was desperate to be with Erin intimately, to make love to her but she always stops my advances telling me "when you've come back to me" well tomorrow night that would be the case and she would be in for a long long night.

Erin POV

As I wait for Damian to arrive my head is a mix of emotions. Excitement that tomorrow night would be the night he would come here and never leave me, that he would be mine again. And then there was the knot in my stomach and the pain in my heart when I think of the new life he is creating with Kayla.

He was getting something he wanted woth all his heart, something I had failed to give him, it hurt I can't lie but I was happy for him.

There had been a part of me that had secretly hoped she had either got it wrong or she was lying but that small bump Damian had shown me said otherwise.

He hadn't shown me to hurt me or to rub it in that she had got further than I had, he was just excited that he was going to be a dad, and I loved seeing him so happy.

Right on cue there is a knock at the door and when I open it I am greeted by a smiling Damian. I let him in and he places the boxes down before scooping me up in his arms and kissing me lovingly.

"I've missed you" he breathes

"You saw me last night" I chuckle

"I know but every moment away from you is torture" he says resting his head against mine "just one more day baby"

"I know" I say closing my eyes "I can't believe we finally got here. How is Kayla taking it?"

"Not good, she doesn't want me to leave but she understands this is how it has to be" he says "since she started to show she has stopped trying to initiate sex with me which is a relief, I'm guessing she is becoming self conscious of her body"

"It's possible and understandable" I say trying not to show that he had raised my suspicions slightly "her body is going to change a lot plus the father and the man she loves is leaving her, it's bound to affect her"

"I tried for so long, I tried to be happy, I tried to love her but my heart only wanted you" he sighs "I never meant to hurt anyone"

"I know you didnt" I say cupping his cheek "following your heart is never easy"

Damian looks deep into my eyes before leaning in and kissing me lovingly and deeply. I melt into the kiss wrapping my arms around his neck just one more night and he would me mine again.

As we kiss his hands delicately roam over my body tracing every curve before gently squeezing my ass.

"D" I breathing "when you've come back to me"

"But I have" he says looking at me longingly "my stuff is pretty much here I have one box left there, I'm yours now"

At his words I crash my lips on to his, he was right why fight this any longer. I make short work of his shirt tossing it aside as my fingertips run over his bare skin and I here him groan softly as he kisses my neck.

In no time he has undone and removed my robe as he trails his lips down towards my breasts. He humms softly as he exposes me to the mixture of the cool air and his warm breath.

"God I've missed you" he whispers

"I've missed you too" I breath "take me upstairs D"

Standing he lifts me bridle stile and never taking his eyes off mine makes his way towards the staircase as I hope with everything in me that I'm not making a huge mistake.