A Mistake Worth Making

9. Mistake?

Erin POV

Shooting upright in bed I could hardly breathe. It had all seemed so real. I had felt every touch, every kiss, every emotion. But why now after so long was I dreaming about a man I had chosen to let go?

I turn my head and as expected I'm alone, he's not here it had all been a dream.........a very good dream.

I reach out and turn my alarm clock towards me 3am. In three hours I had a dream that spanned more than 6 weeks how was that even possible?

Climbing out of bed I head downstairs to get some water. When I reach the kitchen I glance at my answer machine and without thinking press play.

Hey it's me. I uh I know I shouldn't be calling but I wanted to hear your voice. I miss you Erin I know I shouldn't say that when my girl is in the next room but sometimes I find myself wishing she was you. God I must be crazy for doing this but I had to tell you that I think we made a mistake, I think we gave up to easily. I was going to come over but I didn't think it was a good idea, I don't even know if this was a good idea. Erin please call me and tell me I'm not going crazy. Tell me you feel the same way. I love you"

Do that had been real, had that caused me to have that dream? For a moment I consider grabbing my car keys and going to his house but then I remember it's 3am he will be sleeping...........beside her.

I run my hands over my face woth no clue what I should do or how I really feel. What did he have to call? Why did he have to stir all of this up?

As though I have no control over my body I find myself doing exactly what I had told myself not to. The drive to his place is a short one, he may have left but he didn't go far........maybe there was a reason for that.

Pulling up outside his house I stride straight to the door and knock. Almost instantly my nerves take over and I turn to walk away when I hear the door open.

"Erin?" A familiar deep voice says and turn finding myself looking into the deep warm eyes of the man who still owned my heart.

Without saying a word I rush to him, take his face in my hands and kiss him. To my relief he wraps his arms around me and kisses me back.

"I got your message" I breathe finally breaking away from him

"I guessed" he smiles and then his brow furrows "have you really come all the way here in you pajamas?" He asks

"Yeah I........." I pause when I see something over his shoulder. I photo of him and Kayla "oh god.......I shouldn't have done that........I shouldn't have come here" I say backing away and heading for my car

"Erin......wait........don't go" he calls after me but I just get in my car and drive.

When I pull up outside my house barely a moment later a familiar car pulls up behind me.

"Erin.......Erin stop" he calls put before grabbing my hand, turning me, pulling me to him and kissing me.

"No we can't" I say pushing him back "you have Kayla"

"No I don't" he says not letting me go "she heard me leave you that message, she had a few choice words for me and she left. Me and her are over"

Slowly I wrap my arms around his neck keeping my eyes on his. He wraps his arms around my waist and we just look at each other for a moment.

"Did you really come after me in just your boxers?" I ask taking in his almost naked body

"I wasn't going to waste time getting clothes" he says "I was going to let you leave me a second time"

"Do you really think we made a mistake?" I ask

"Yeah I do" he says "emotions were high, we'd lost something we both wanted so much. You never had to say it but I know you thought you had failed me and I know that's why you pushed me away...........it was never anything to do with work becuase we always made it work regardless of our schedules"

"But the arguments, the accusations? And you agreed it had to end" I say

"The fighting happened because while I was fighting to keep us together you were fighting to push me away" he says tucking my hair behind my ear "I agreed to leave becuase I hoped you would realise that you didn't want me to go"

"I did the second you left" I sigh "but I couldn't bring myself to go after you or call you. And then you met Kayla and I thought that was it. We could never go back"

"Well now we have a second chance" he smiles "question is do we take it?"

Silently and with a soft smile I press my lips agaisnt his giving him my answer. His arms tighten around me and we just seem to melt into each other. With everything in me I hope this isn't a mistake.