A Mistake Worth Making

1. Wish She Was You

Erin POV

Walking into my house I drop my bags by the door and kick off my shoes. It had been a long flight and an even longer week.

Rubbing my neck I make my way to the kitchen and straight to the fridge where I know I have a bottle of wine. I pour myself a glass and take a seat at the kitchen counter.

I loved my job and that it gave me the opportunity to travel. What I didn't like was coming home to an empty house. Especially one that had once been filled with love, laughter and hopes for the future.

This place hadn't felt the same since he left but I didn't have the heart move. Did I miss him? More than I would ever admit. Did I want him back? If things were different yes absolutely.

The split was a mutal agreement, work had gotten in the way, I was home when he wasn't and vice versa which meant we never saw each other. The laughter became arguments and accusations and the hopes became fears  of losing everything we had.

It's then I notice a light flashing on my answer machine. On closer inspection there is only one message, taking a sip of my wine I hit play.

"Hey it's me. I uh I know I shouldn't be calling but I wanted to hear your voice. I miss you Erin I know I shouldn't say that when my girl is in the next room but sometimes I find myself wishing she was you. God I must be crazy for doing this but I had to tell you that I think we made a mistake, I think we gave up to easily. I was going to come over but I didn't think it was a good idea, I don't even know if this was a good idea. Erin please call me and tell me I'm not going crazy. Tell me you feel the same way. I love you"

For a moment I just stare at the machine, was that real? Had he really left that message and why did I have the urge to run to him?

Then I remember he's not mine anymore he's her man now. He moved on when I couldn't even consider it and now he's thrown me for a loop.

I down the rest of my glass of wine, grab the bottle and head upstairs. I run myself a bubble bath and let out a sigh as I sink into the warm water. I can't shake the should of his voice or the words he said. Was he crazy? Did we make a mistake?

I knock at the door shakes me from my thoughts but I don't move. It was probably door to door sales and I wasn't in the mood. As I sip at my second glass of wine and suprise myself when I feel tears run down my cheeks, damn it Damian why did you ever have to mean so much to me.

There's another knock at the door only a little louder. This time I get out of the bath and put on my robe. Slowly I make my way downstairs and flick on the hallway light as I approach the door.

When I open it a freeze to the spot when I see him standing there. His eyes look said and he looks pained.

"Did you get my message?" He asks nervously and I nod "tell me I'm wrong, tell me that this isn't where I should be" he says stepping into the house and I close the door

"You know why we aren't together D, it won't work" I say "I don't want to go back to fighting with you"

"I think we can make it work, I couldn't see it before but it is possible" he says "but tell me you don't love me and I will leave"

"You know I love you but are with some one else now" I say "D you need to leave and go home to your girl"

Damian looks at me not moving like he's trying to read my face. I turn away and open the door for him to leave only he doesn't. Instead he takes me by suprise by striding over to me pulling me into his arm and kissing me.

Out of pure instinct my hands take hold of his face and I kiss him back. He let's go of me with one arm to close the door before wrapping it back around me.

"D........." I breath as we break apart

"If you want me to leave say the word and I'm gone" he says looking deep in my eyes "do you want me to leave?"

"Yes.....no.......I don't know" I sigh "you can't do this D. You can't just turn up here say you want me back, kiss me and expect me to be able to make any kind of decision"

"You're right" he says "but I think you made your decision when you kissed me back"

"You know I could never say no to kissing you, you're not playing fair" I say and he smiles "what about her?"

"She's out of town with friends" he says and I look at him confused "I left that message a week ago, after I hung up I remembered you would be out of time. Its crazy, four months and I still remember your schedule"

"You can't be with me while you are with her I won't do it" I say "I won't be that person"

"Erin, baby if you want me back then she is gone and I am yours" he says seriously "just tell me what you want"

"I want what we had before it went bad" I sigh "I want the man I fell in love with, I want the laughter, the happiness and most of all I want the future we planned but not until you a free to be with me"

"Then it's done" he smiles "as far as I'm concerned I'm yours. I'll break it off as soon as she gets back and then I'll come straight here, if you want me to move back that is"

"This has always been your home D" I say "are we really doing this?"

"Yeah we are" he says "just a few days and then I'll be here with you"

He makes a move towards the door and I grab his hand. He looks down at our joined hands and then back up at me.

"Don't go" I say softly "I'm tired of being lonely"

"Are you sure?" He asks and I nod before locking the door, taking his hand and guiding him upstairs.