Lost - Ellie Carpenter and Daniëlle Van De Donk

The call

(Ellie's pov)

I woke up to my alarm the next morning, getting fully ready for the day with my mind racing a million miles an hour. I barely slept last night. I kept overthinking what happened last night... Because what. the. hell.

I don't even know how it happened.

I don't know what came over me.

What i did know is that i wanted to kiss her.

I need to tell Teagan.

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As i pick up my phone to call her, my phone starts vibrating, with Teagan calling me already.

Shes literally like a mind-reader.

"Well good morning to the girl who didn't reply to any of my messages last night. Are you still alive?"

"No i'm dead"

"Rest in peace Ellie. What happened?"

"I kissed Daniëlle..."

"I'm sorry, you did WHAT?"

"Yeah..."

"WHAT? HOW? IS THAT WHY YOU DIDN'T REPLY TO ME? OH MY GOD"

I sat there for a second, listening to her reaction, smiling slightly from the shock from my best friend.

"Wait so how did this happen?"

"She took me out to get ice-cream after training and-"

"Oooo so a date?"

"Nope"

"Are you sure?"

"Shush let me finish"

"Okay okay" She laughed and i could see her smile through the phone.

"So we were talking about moving to Lyon and i mentioned my not put together couch, and then she offered to help me"

"That is so sweet" Teagan replies, placing a hand over her heart with a happy expression on her face.

I take a quick second to myself, smiling while i re-tell the story, thinking once again about last night.

"Then a glass of wine and like 2 hours later, we were talking on the couch together about our lives"

"Right"

"And oh my god Teagan she looked so cute, her smile was adorable and the way her hair framed her face was shocking. She looked so beautiful"

"I feel like i'm watching a romance film"

"And then, I don't even know what happened it was like my mind ran off, and it was like everything was clear and i wanted to kiss her"

"Well did she kiss you back?"

"I think she was stunned at first but then yeah she did"

"I told you she had the fattest crush on you and you didn't believe me!"

I giggled at her response, blushing slightly

"Awww thats so cute you're blushing already"

I instantly change my face into the most serious face i could pull and stare her down, sending her into a fit of laughter.

"So what now?" Teagan asks, after regaining her composure.

"See that is where i am struggling. I have no clue"

"What do you mean?"

"Well she left not long after"

"Oh"

"Is that bad?"

"Well-"

"Oh god it's bad isn't it. Why would i kiss a teammate? Honestly what was i thinking? She's 9 years older than me too i'm sure she'd want someone more mature and-"

"Jesus Ellie chill out, take a deep breath. She probably needed to think or it was late and she was tired from building your couch"

I took a deep breath, trying not to freak out while Teagan was talking to me.

"Just see how it goes don't overthink it. If she doesn't like you like that she will back away"

"I guess" I reply, my previous happiness from retelling last nights stories gone.

"Don't get sad Ellie it will be fine"

I smile at her, hiding the conflicting thoughts in my head, instead asking her about her life.

"So what are you doing this week Teagan?"

"I have training today but then I have some time off"

"Ooo that sounds good what are you going to do"

"Might pack tomorrow and fly out to see you the day after? What do you think?"

"Wait what?"

"Booked a flight last week, you up for it?"

"Of course!! Why didn't you tell me?"

"Felt like it would be funner this way. It was." Teagan replies, a mischievous smile and a laugh coming out of her.

"Pick me up from the airport at 10am?" Teagan asks, me still stunned from this information.

"Sure i'll be there"

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We ended the call about half an hour later, Teagan having to get to training and i needed to finally get up and do something.

I decided on reading a book for a bit, sitting down on my couch and playing some chill music on my alexa and opening my book up again.

But I think i only read about 5 pages before realising i was sat in the same place as last night, except that time i wasn't alone. And then the memories came flooding back.

I wish i knew what she was thinking. I want to know why she left. Why did she offer to build my couch? Are we friends? Are we more than friends? Or am i just the baby who's only just joined the team and shes just being friendly? I have so many questions but i can't bring myself to find her or text her or anything. 

At least i don't have to face her today, but tomorrow is a different story.

I don't know how i am going to survive training tomorrow..