Anxiety| Shawn mendes

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LONG ASS CHAPTER 4 U ALL

Melanie's POV

We had one more day of school until MAGCON. I looked in the mirror into my half decent outfit. I grabbed my winter coat and left my house. I wasn't going to Impress anyone. I didn't have anyone to impress. I climbed in my car and drove to my school.

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When I arrived at school, people were staring, laughing, and gossiping. Ugh, a teenage bully movie is it?

"I thought you actually liked me" they mocked what I said earlier at the party.

"What?" I ask the student. They show me a video on their phone, It was the video of me and Danny. It looks like he set up a camera. My eyes filled with tears as I walked through the halls with my head down. People laughing and staying stuff about me. I felt like shit. I said "hi" to Leah. She completely ignored me. Seems like all the friends I had stopped talking to me. I haven't seen Shawn yet, but the only one who actually talked to me was my best friend, Laya.

We barely had periods together but we remained best friends. It was around lunch time when I would see Shawn. I sat at the end of the lunch table trying to avoid everyone. I felt as if I was not even wanted. I checked my phone, the video blew up my Imessage. They talked about it on Instagram, Twitter and even Facebook.

A pit grew in my stomach. I was hungry but I refused to get in the line. I wasn't trying to get teased again. I stared down and my lap. Added on the to fire incident I got bullied for that. A figure appeared from the corner of my eye. He sat right in front of me. I slowly looked up. I didn't want to say anything, that would end up lump in my throat; I would cry.

"Lana, I'm sorry" Shawn spoke softly

"Everyone's talking- tormenting me.. It's like my confidence just flew out the window" my voice cracked and a lump formed in my throat. Shawn got up and sat next to me.

I laid my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder. Tomorrow I would be gone from the school, besides its winter break in 3 days.

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I got out of my car and walked in my house. My dad was home it was Monday.

"How was your day honey?" He asked with a wide smile

"The worst" I sighed and walked upstairs to my room I shut it quickly and got on my phone. I checked Twitter and the video was retweeted many times. I threw my phone on my bed and covered my face with my hands. I pulled my desk chair out and placed it in front of my huge bay window in my room.

It showed the back of my house which showed a playground and a neighborhood. I sat in the chair hugging my knees. I watched as the snowflakes fell from the sky making. A white glacier upon the snowy grass. I stared out the window. All I did was just sit there- stare. I heard a knock on my door. It opened slightly and dad walked in.

"What's wrong Lana?" he walked up to me as I sat in the chair.

"It's just school" I sighed

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked sitting on my bed.

"No" I said just above a whisper. He unsurely stood up

"You need to start packing. You're going with Shawn to that.. thing tomorrow." He left the room and shut the door. I got up and folded clothes into a small suitcase I had under my bed. I packed everything I needed and put the suitcase in the corner. I sat back in the chair hugging my knees again.

Stop crying, thinking what's wrong with me. I soon came to realize, crying is too weak despite I want to join the Navy after school so it will pay most of my college. I forced myself to stop crying and I remained silent listening to music now.