Anxiety| Shawn mendes

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-and then one day, the whole world changed-

Melanie's POV

"I'm not "okay" Shawn. Right now you're pretending like everything is okay. If my dad goes.... I have.. I'll HAVE NOTHING LEFT. Nothing" I huffed. He patiently stared down to his mug.

"I'm sorry, I'm just- I'm a bad person" I attempted to leave him.

"Stay" he grabbed my hand causing me to sit back into the booth.

"You're going to look back at this when you're a senior and you're going to think; oh yeah times were hard, stubborn. I swear everything will get better. You're only looking on the bad side
" he exclaimed

"There is no good side" I muttered

"Not be cocky, At least you have me. I mean where's Laya, where are your "friends" at huh? I've been here this whole time" he explained softly

"You're right... I'm sorry. I've just been caught up in so much drama. It's like I'm living a life of an 80's drama show" I slowly wiped the wet circles under my eyes. He looked like he was eager to say something but he didn't bother.

"Let's go" he murmured. I got up and followed him out into the dark parking  lot. It was still Sunday, we went out for a late coffee.

"I'll drop you off at home. You can stay at my house if you want" Shawn nervously picked his thumbnail with his index finger

"Can I?" I asked

"My mom doesn't mind" he said. I thanked him and hopped in his car. When we arrived at his house I read 7:48 on the clock. His mom gladly welcomed me in with a sympathetic hug.

"Shawn your sister wants some time with you" his mom told him as he lead me upstairs. He gave her a look.

"You haven't been home all day come on Shawn" she argued.

"Come on Aaliyah" I signaled her to come and smirked at Shawn. We got settled in his room. We sat on his vaccines carpet floor in a circle, our legs crossed.

"Melanie, what's it like to be without your parents?" She asked innocently. I slightly choked.

"Aaliyah" Shawn muttered and tapped her knee with his foot.

"It's- depressing. It's not something you think about on a daily bases. I don't know- I don't know how to explain it. But you don't need to worry about it.. Alright" I gave her a fake smile before returning it into a frown.

"Let's play truth or dare" she changed the subject from Shawn's commands

"Mhm" Shawn agreed

"Alright you start Aaliyah" I suggest

"Truth or dare? Melanie"

"Dare" I replied

"I dare you to try to lick your elbow" she giggled. I shrugged and pushed my elbow back trying to lick it.

"Ugh" I groaned as I kept trying. I soon fell back on the floor laughing.

"I made her smile" Aaliyah whispered to Shawn

"I can't do it" I whined

"Neither can I" she replied.

"Mmk, Shawn truth or dare?" I asked

"Dare" he replied quite confident.

"I dare you to.. Uh... Call Laur and confess your feelings for her" Aaliyah busted out laughing.

"I can't" He scratched the back of his head.

"I have her number" I smirked

"I can't" he said seriously.

"Melanie, Shawn doesn't like Laur" Aaliyah continued laughing

"You lied to me" I crossed my arms.

"It's because Shawn likes you" Aaliyah blurted. Shawn pushed her shoulder. My heart skipped a beat. His eyes shot over to mine. It's not true

"Hahaha, now call Laur, don't try to cover it up" my cheeks flushed for some reason

"Aaliyah can you leave the room for a minute" Shawn stared at the ground. Without hesitation she left the room and shut the door.

"Shawn?"

"Lana. I like you. No" he paused. My heart completely stopped this time.

"You're kidding me" I stood up.

"No, I really like you" he stood up following me.

"Shawn you're my best friend... I know you don't like me" I backed up a little.

"You don't feel the same?" He asked with truth in his eyes. I didn't say anything. But I'm sure, I had feelings for him as well. I guess I'm good at hiding things.

"I knew it... She should've kept her mouth shut.. She ruined it" Shawn turned the other way with red hot cheeks.

"It's not like that. Shawn I like you too. But I'm under the impression this is a joke" I said

"I already told you how much I like you at your house. You know I like you, and it's really uncomfortable for me. I like you and you don't even realize. Did you even pay attention to the lyrics of the song I wrote for you after I confessed my feelings for you. You obviously don't like me back" he started to become angry.

"No Shawn. I really like you. You never asked me to be your girlfriend so I thought you didn't mean it like that" he turned around. He slyly approached me.

"Love is an understatement for how I feel about you" my cheeks flushed red. My stomach was filled with a WHoLE gODAMN ZoO.

"Kiss me" was all my hormonal teenage body could make out. He slowly leaned in to collapse his lips on mine. I wanted to scream but that would be such a turn down. But I don't think we'd be just friends after this, we've kissed too many times.

How blind were we? I smiled into the kiss while he wrapped his arms around my body. We hear the door creak open, our heads shot over to the direction.

"You said back in one minute and you guys are already sucking eachothers faces off" Aaliyah giggled and quickly shut the door. I turned my head to Shawn, his cheeks flaming red.

"I guess I can call you mine?" He asked with confidence

"And I guess I can too?.." I smiled. I then snapped back to reality knowing my dad is unhealthy, somehow Shawn could do anything to make me smile. I have been blind for so long, what I needed to make me happy was standing right in front of me for so long.

I'm not completely fixed, I'm just getting repaired.

Sorry for short teasy chapter but I can say, Shelanie is on... 😂 <3 I feel like everything is confusing, dramatic and bipolar much lol, I still like this story hope you all like it too