Don't touch me // Minsung

4. 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘴 𝘢 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥

tw: mentions of suicide/eating disorder

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Jisung had gotten too lost in his thoughts that he had to pace to catch up with his friends who had already left the classroom a long time ago, almost outside the campus by now.

"Aren't you supposed to meet the director?" Seungmin asked, surprised to see his friend pop up behind them. Too focused on trying to get close to Minho, Jisung had completely forgotten about his meeting. But at the same time, his mind only dwelled back in his worries, doubting his every decision. It did not seem like such a great idea now that he had to put his words into actions. What would he even tell the director?

The other members instantly stopped on the sidewalk and turned back to look at them, confused.

"Why do you have to see the director?" they asked, curious to know the secret Jisung and Seungmin seemed to share with each other. But Jisung did not want to tell them and simply avoided the question, he did not want someone else to know about this, well not now at least.

"Nothing, I just... it was not interesting anyway." He just mumbled.

And well he did not convince anyone with his answer but the friends just walked again, rightfully guessing he would not tell them anything else. He followed them, trailing a bit behind, his head low only looking at the leaves on the ground. For the first time this year, he realized it was Autumn, and the sound of leaves crushing under his feet that used to bring him a little joy did not even mean anything to him anymore.

Seungmin slowed down to walk by his side and slightly shrugged his shoulder in silence, waiting for his friend to explain why he had changed plans.

"I need to think more, I'm not sure" Jisung spoke quietly, careful to not be heard by anyone else other than Seungmin.

"That was the exact point of the meeting, to talk with him and figure it out. You're just avoiding your problems right now." Seungmin pointed out, disappointed but still supportive.

"Yeah, I know damn..." Jisung shushed him quick, already exasperated. He knew he was right, like always, and he hated it.

They left the campus under Minho's stares, walking as far behind them as he could. He had to leave the campus but did not want to stumble upon Jisung again. That boy had been around him all day long, way too invested in his life, and he dreaded having to potentially see or talk to him again.

When the group of friends finally disappeared from Minho's sight, he picked up his pace and went to town, walking fast and avoiding people around watching him. He was tired, he desperately needed to sleep but he had to work, you do need money to live...

"Oh, by the way congrats!" Seungmin said, ignoring the fact that Jisung had shushed him just a few seconds ago. But Jisung was completely lost.

"You survived sitting next to the new one" he clarified.

"Yeah! How was it?" Felix, overhearing their conversation, had been wanting to know more about Minho ever since he heard the rumors.

"Well, he is an asshole. He refused my help so yeah we didn't talk much." Jisung hissed, still not accepting how the older treated him.

"Why do you even want to help him when he acts like that?", Seungmin said, unable to understand his friend. But Jisung softened, recalling Minho on the restroom floor cleaning his food and not even eating anything for lunch. He refused help, why? Did he feel unworthy of it?

"I don't know, he just needs it. He's behind us in class and he's struggling. Plus, I'm pretty sure they bully him..." Jisung kept staring at the ground as Seungmin tried hard to catch an eye contact, in vain.