With a heart filled with tons of questions and insecurities, I enter the OT with Dr. Nishan beside me. I couldn't give the CPR properly; how will I deliver her baby? I am scared. I am questioning my capabilities. If Dr. Nishan didn't arrive on time, I wouldn't have been able to save Rachana.
"Dr. Shruti! You can do it." Dr. Nishan says bringing me back to reality.
We both walk towards Rachana. My heart breaks looking at her. She's in this situation only because of me. I gave her so much pain.
"We should start now!" Dr. Nishan says.
The nurses and other doctors check her vitals and the baby's position. An anesthesiologist makes her sleep. Dr. Nishan is monitoring her heart rate and is prepared for any situation.
"Scalpel" I tell the nurse and she passes it to me.
For the first time, my hand is shaking while holding a scalpel.
"Everything will be fine doctor. I am here." Dr. Nishan says.
The presence of Dr. Nishan makes me confident. I nod my head and begin the surgery. Once I start, I'm unstoppable. I've been doing this from years. I'm doing what I love "Bringing life in this world."
I finally lift the baby's head and take it out. It's a baby girl. Everyone smiles looking at the baby. We need to be careful as she's a pre mature baby. We must keep the baby in the incubator soon.
One of the doctors cuts the umbilical cord and the baby starts crying lightly, making all of us smile in joy. I hand over the baby to one of the doctors and tell her to keep her in the incubator and handle her. I then focus on the stitching part. After it's done, everyone claps for each other and congratulates for a successful delivery. I close my eyes and thank the god. I'm just glad there were no complications and Rachana's heart is also stable now.
I freshen up walk inside the next room to OT where the incubator was kept and look at the little princess who just entered this world. She's so tiny. My eyes are filled with tears, just by looking at her. I had never been this emotional during a birth of a child. In few seconds someone comes and stands by my side. I already know who the person is.
We both are looking at the baby without exchanging words and glances.
"You did a great job." Dr. Nishan finally breaks the silence.
"We did it." I look up at him. He looks so proud.
"She's so tiny. So pretty." I add, looking at the baby. I'm in the verse of crying.
"Come here!" He opens his arms. Without any hesitation I close the distance between us and wrap my hands around his chest. I can hear his calm heartbeat getting fast. He tightens the grip and hugs me.
"I'm so proud of you." He plants a kiss on my head.
"Thank you for coming in the right time. You saved her." I say.
"Anyway, is Rachana's heart really okay?" I ask. I'm concerned.
"It looks like she was too much stressed otherwise she wouldn't have had a heart attack. Stress raised the blood pressure so high that it led to a heart attack. Now, as the baby is delivered, there are chances of her blood pressure getting normal. Still, we'll have to keep her in observation." He says.
"You know why she was stressed?" He asks, making me realize why she was actually stressed.
Rachana is stressed because of me. Because I slapped Kabir in front of everyone and revealed his truth to her. I did that because I was drunk. I got drunk because Dr. Nishan lied to me. The realization made my heart shrink again.
