Summer Of Broken Hearts.

chapter 17

I woke up in Otto's bed, I was in his room. It remainds me a bit on my teens, but in a cool way. He have many books there inside. Also some small statues or pop's toy from star wars.

Otto was hugging me like if I were his favourite Teddy bear. I can feel his arms arround my torse, and his breathing in my neck. I turn arround looking at him. I can see his angelica sleepy face. I make like small complain when I move to turn to him, and keep sleeping like a baby.

I am playing very softly with his blond curls, he seems not complain about. I was drawing small circles and on his left ear. Seems he likes it, because doesn't have intentions of open his eyes.

I was looking at him, and some way I am back the first morning waking up with Lydia. It was the first time I brought Lydia to my house. It was our first sleep over. I am confuss. I am so confuss, that I am affraid of this. Don't get me wrong. I do like Otto. I truly do like Otto, he is a good man. He is showing his contry without leaving me behind. He is worried of food and that I am having the best food experience. Nobody does that to some one who met the first time in a cafe shop.

I am angry. Not to him, he ain't do nothing to angry me. I am sad. Not because of him again, but because somehow Lydia remaind in my heart. I still bleading out, and I don't know what to do. I want to really move on. I want to explore this thing with Otto. My affraid it was if Lydia left me by her own or by my lies. Will Otto do the same? Will I them be able to move really on?

So many question. It has been nearly five to six months, and I still can not get over it this shit. Will I be free to open up to Otto one day?, and won't be too late?. I took a deep breath. Otto wakes up, and he stare at me.

" good morning, sleepy beauty, how did you sleep tonight?" I asked while I am hopping being realist by his arms.

" good morning" he said, and then he hides his face on my shoulder I sleep like a baby" he answered.

" I can feel it" I said, while I scratch his head." But I have some news", he got looking at me quiet bothered.

" what?"

" I need to go to the toilet" i said like a little girl. His cold eyes begain to tender.

" oh, I am sorry, I was a bit concern that you would freak out, because we slept in the same bed." He joke.

" hahaha, very funny" Making a little funny face" now I am seriuos I need the toilet" I repit myself.

He relisme from his arms, I move quickly to the toilet. I sat down pretty quick on the bath and I just let go. A went to the livingroom, he was preparing coffee for two. Making some breakfast. I just sat down and wait. I didn't said anything. I still being confuss, there are many photos with his girlfriend. And I still lost on my thought. He puts a plate of eggs bacon and avocado toast, and coffee.

" let's dig in" he said. I starlet for a moment. Inwas on my thoughts and he just broke that moment. " so you just have next week, and then there's someone waiting for you?" Opening a conversation.

" well, other than Sara to complain about her boyfriend, and Cara to go on holidays, no one else." I answered while I bit the toast.

" what about your girlfriend?, you mentioned the day of the beach"

" we took a time"

" seems more a broke up"

" well, we split, shit happens Otto. "

He still cutting his breakfast and eating a bit faster that I do. I don't feel to talk about Lydia but something is telling me that he has to asked.

" so you guys broke up, how come?" Chewing his toast.