I woke up, I look right next to me and there he was, I can't stop to stare his angelica sleepy face. I play a bit with his blond curls, he seems not being bother at all. I started to think what would happen, if yesterday night i have sex with him. I wonder my panick attack of yesterday night, but all i coukd think was that nobody did actually know stimulate me, my old myself wouldn't never mind hurt myself, on the contrary I would have sex with that guy and then I would put my panties and a t-shit, and I would walk away from him like ninja. Otto on the contrary, I felt insicure, but at the same time safe. Safe enought to be realised he freak out when I begain to hyperventilating.
I rich my phone I saw a text from Instagram, seems Otto. Thanking me to tell that he was ok. Some how Otto squize me a bit more on his hug. I play again with his curly hair. And I pose a little kiss on his forehead. He still laying over me peacfully. We spend twenty more minutes laying hug in my bed. Søren woke up and he text me.
<<hey where we should pick up the mister?>>
<<would you like some breakfast at my house?>>
<< sure>>
<< it is 49 prusia wood>>
<< we will there>>
<< take your time he seems not to wake up any sooner>>
<< how do you know?>>
<< I am his Teddy bear>>
<< oh, okey, I let you guy enjoy each other.>>
I let you guy enjoy each other, what does suppose to mean this?. I asked myself, I didn't gave too much importance, but I felt being forever hug, and not be able to move. I tried to go to the toilet, I need it so bad sat down on the bath. I tried to move him a bit in the most delicated way.
" no!!!" Complained with his sleepy voice," stay!!" While he wrapped his arms on me, again.
" can I go to the toilet?" Hopping some lish.
" are you going to touch yourself there?"
" do you want to join me?" Making sarcasm.
" mmm... are you ok?" Asked while he looked at me concerned.
" I am just peeing you sleepy head." Scratching his head.
" nååå, I see, ok you may go" leaving me.
I walk fast to the toilet, I was a bit anxious, but nothing happens. So I am good. I back from the toilet I am sitting on my bed and I am grabing a book to read.
" are you Ok?" Asked again.
" yes, I am"
" do you want to talk, about last night?" Trying to solve what happens.
" I just freak out, that's it, I am fine honestly"
" it felt like someone force you to do something that you don't want to do actually" comments while he puts away my book.
" I... just freak out..." I said again. I don't know how really put the pices on it's place, I am affraid if I tell him. He will walk away.
" Marta, it would never cross my mind force you to something that you don't want, do you hear me. I want you to be free to decided what do you really want do" grabbingnmy hands
" ok, I just remembered a bad expirience Otto, it isn't a big deal" I tried to softed the subject, but still something quiet difficult to talk for me.
We lost track of time, I hear my door bell ringing, I open so sudden my eyes and my first though was Søren and Kevin were downstairs waiting for one of us to open them.
" we need to take this" trying to set myself free from him.
" no" he complain.
" come on, we had plenty of time being two Teddy bears"
" just let them go, don't go downstairs, stay" complaining like a kid.
" chop, chop Otto" I put my pajama pants, I went to my room door, and open it, " I'll send you Kevin to open, or maybe Søren, don't worry one of them know how to wake you up" I smile and cross the door, I went downstairs, all I can hear from him, was growls of me moving out.
I open the door, and they were there.
" good morning, hopefully guys are enjoying your trip, please come in my humble place" greeting them while I see Kevin face pissed ." Kev, are you ok darling?"
" can belive , he spend the whole night complaining" saying quiet angry.
Who?. I pretend to asked, but I guess, I already know the answer by looking Søren face. " he is upstairs, first door left" I felt how his eyes were angry, that ice cold look froze me up. I went to the kitchen, Kevin is starting to put lots off food on the table, and then he got looking at me while I am preparing four mugs and prehitting water.
I couldn't belive that was going to be a quiet morning, but I could not hold my next question. " is he really pissed?"
" just a bit, they are like brothers, they will fight but won't go any further, so don't worry there won't be blood share here. Maybe exchange of words" says Kevin while he finished to tidy up the table.
We were in silence. So silences that at some point we started to listen them. They were yelling in Danish, and it feels like a total battle of words. I can see Kevin face showing worry, and then he just got looking at me.
" what?" I asked worried.
" was he gentle?"
" was... gentle?"
" you know..."
" he was..." I felt embarrassed, I truly felt very embaresed. I felt uncapable to talk with Kevin about sex, not even make a joke, and we kept going on our business.
Suddenly Søren came down, I don't know what it suppose to mean. If he won or Otto. He walks to me and tried to talk discretly.
" was he gentle?"
" yeah"
" are you sure? Did he put you through any excuse?"
I felt angry, I could keep going answering by yes or not. So my mind did speak pretty freely in that moment.
" look, I got beaf, he ain't throuw shit, nor obligated me, it was mutual, so I didn't do nothing that I didn't want." I looked Søren, his face change. He was embarrassed. He turns to his mug and grabs Kevin mugs.
" ok" He muttered while he walks to Kevin and Otto appears by the door.
" well sleepy beauty, seems someone slept well tonight"
We were all in silence, Otto grabs his cup and sip the coffe. We were close but I felt he has been scold by his actions, and I don't blame them. If he did pick up the phone, maybe Søren and Kevin would come with another mood.
That they I brought them to the museum, I show them my favourite restauran of pizza and at some point we were going to my place. Kevin and Otto sat together in the bus, while I was with Søren.
" I want you to be honest with me" comments while I look they were listen music.
" what is it?"
" I need to know, that you aren't trying to hurt Otto "
" I don't want to hurt Otto"
" so are you guy ..."
" I ... I want to think this is real Søren, but I know that Otto and you two are public faces and I am no one , he diserve better than me"
" fair point, but you know he doesn't give three shit about he being someone and you don't, do you?"
I look to Søren, " that's what I am affraid off"
" I just want him happy, but if you really have feeling for him, and you are runing away..."
" I am running away emotionally, because it is my best option"
" at some point Marta, you have to stop to run away" his eyes show me serenity. Søren and I weren't have the best begining. We didn't hate each other, but we couldn't either way stand each other. I came to realised he just want what he think it is best for his friend.
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Summer Of Broken Hearts.
HumorA broke up, woke up Marta to reality, she began to realise on her latest twenties about where did go her life. Although that she is comited to keep going with her life, she find herself on difficulties to find love and company to fild up the emptin...
